It Ain't The Speakers |-/ JOSHLER

5.1: yøu're the øne that i need

☔ GERARD'S PØV 💦

It's raining, I've an umbrella in my bag but I couldn't be bothered to take it out. The walk to the bus stop across the street wasn't that far.

The sky was getting darker, and I'm out here alone, waiting for the bus. My timetable ended later than most others on Thursdays, because I've been taking advanced art class since my second year in Zephyrus High.

Back then, I was still in the same civics class as Ray and Tyler. Ray would stay back at school just to wait for me to end my lessons, then we would walk to this bus stop together.

Not anymore.

So many things had changed since this term started. Not that I had control over all of this, but the fact that I could have tried to do something about it just made me feel worse. I was separated from Tyler, I had lost Ray, and my grandmother had left.

Let's start with Tyler. He was the understanding one which no one could hate. We were still friends (I think), but I almost never see him anymore. His and Ray's classrooms were mostly in the B block, while mine was all in block C. It was a short distance away and I would gladly walk there just to see them during our few mutual breaks.

But would they want me to? I think Ray is still angry at me. He should be, it was my fault for overreacting and not trusting him.

I'm just glad that he looks fine, it seems like he got over it. He even got new friends, I've been noticing him after school with a guy in our grade called Bob and the cute junior named Frank, Mikey's in his class. He's tiny. He walks past my classroom often.

I'd go and apologize to Ray, but I can imagine that's just gonna be awkward. Imagine two months of ignoring each other, then suddenly your ex-bestfriend randomly comes and says sorry.

But I really missed both of them. Granny's passing really hit me and Mikey, she meant so much to us. I don't wanna lose my bestfriends too.

I'd be lying if I didn't say this.

It was crazy how Ray and I were planning to enter the talent competition together with Mikey as a band. Ain't gonna happen now, its just me and my brother.

We wrote a song for Granny during the holidays, and we're gonna play it for round one, but it just doesn't sound right. If Ray was here, he'd know exactly what to do, and Tyler would naturally make me smile, something I haven't done for quite some time.

Mikey was standing at the door when I got off the bus. I ran in before he could grab an umbrella to fetch me.

"You didn't bring an umbrella?"

"I did, but it doesn't matter, what a hassle." The rain might have ruined my eyeliner, but whatever.

He followed me in quietly and watched me plop onto the couch. "How's it with Ray?"

I had much to learn from my younger brother. He had forgiven Ray on the spot and believed his story. He trusted Ray, my best friend, yet I didn't.

"I've been such a dick. It obviously wasn't his fault. I'll apologize, soon."

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Surpriseeeee it's Gerard omg.

I know it's a Joshler fic so I'm trying not to talk about MCR too much