It Ain't The Speakers |-/ JOSHLER

13: what have i becøme? im sørry.

🌛 TYLER'S PØV🌛

The familiar old and musty smell. The Midland. I haven't been here very often since I met Josh, I realised...but now I was hiding here to get away from him.

Camouflaged in the shadows of the darkest corner, I watched the sunlit side opposite me where I usually sat. It was starting to drizzle, bit all I could envision was the day I got his number. The day we started the phone pinching thingy... How stupid.

My hands felt cold. A mess of thoughts started pounding in my head, threatening to escape...

...but no one cares what I think.

I care what you think.

I paused for a moment to make sure I was alone. That it wasn't someone else's voice speaking to me.

Write it out, Tyler,
like you always do.

Doing as I was told, I slowly dug my pocket to retrieve my favourite black pen. The pen I had always used for writing song lyrics and all the random things in my notebook... It gave a soft click when I pushed the button, which made me smile a little, despite the cuts in my arm, which had started to bleed from the fall.

How do you feel, Tyler?

I pressed the tip of the pen onto my skin. The jet black ink felt cool on my left wrist. Why wrist? Idk...

Why not?

"BETRAYED." I wrote in capitals the first thing that came to mind, thinking of two particularly stupid people that I shouldn't have trusted. I couldn't find a more accurate adjective at the moment that wasn't a bad word.

It felt so horrible for so many reasons. Isn't Josh supposed to be my best friend?

Is he?

I don't know... Watching the two of them together, it felt as if they had ganged up on me this time, which just made it worse. He just wouldn't fricking listen. They both never care.

That's probably the only reason that they get along. What does he see in her? Even Josh and I would make a better ship...

Lol.

...Wait, what? No...I'm straight. And so is he. I don't like him. Like I said, screw him.

Right.

Is that all, Tyler?

I shook my head, then grinned at how crazy I was for talking to myself. I must look really idiotic now, but that's why I'm better off alone. That's what the Midland is for, isn't it? When you're caught in the middle of nowhere?

I sighed as I wrote the second word. "HOPELESS." Mom is gonna kill me for losing my phone, and there goes my best friend... Well I still have Ray and Gee but... They're different. Josh was different.

...but is "different" a good thing or bad?

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⚡ JØSH'S PØV⚡

I stared blankly in the direction Tyler flew.

Uh. What the hell just happened?!

"Hmpf" Debby turned to walk away and I snapped out of it. What was she doing there?! Can I run after Tyler? Should I?