An Unexpected Guest

Chapter 28: Nothing Left But Sad Memories

Harry POV

Cassandra was beyond broken. she had woken up every night crying for the past four days. i would hold her and stroke her hair until she fell back asleep. it pained me to see her like this. and Smokey was not only special to her, but to me as well. he had really grown on me and i was sad to see him gone. he was a part of Cass when i first met her and it will take a while for everyone to get used to him being gone. 

i was way more worried about Cass in regards to what she might do to herself. i knew what happend that day backstage when she cut her wrist. it wasnt just because of the hate and the nightmares, it was because of how long she had been away from Smokey. and i didnt want to imagine what she would do knowing that she will never see him again. 

i had told Zayn the truth about what really happened with his knife that day. he was upset that he was lied to, but relieved that Cass didnt hurt herself too badly. the main reason i told Zayn was because i had asked everyone to keep an eye on Cass until this got easier. not just for the sake of her well being but for the child's that she is carrying as well. 

i woke up around one in the morning and noticed that Cass wasnt laying beside me. i immediately suspected the wrose and got out of bed. 

ii looked in the bathrooma and she wasnt in there. i walked down the stairs and made my way to the kitchen to find that she wasnt there either. i went back up the stairs and into the bedroom completely worried. then i noticed that the window by her desk was open. i ran and looked out, "Cass, are you out here?" i got no response but heard a shuffling noise above me. i climbed out onto the roof and found a dark figure sitting above the window, "Cassandra." i sighed in relief that i had found her. 

"go away, Harry." she told me as i climbed up to sit next to her. i saw that she had a small blade in her hand. i looked at her wrists. they were clean except for two small cuts near the scar she had on her arm. what? how did she...? i thought i had hidden all the small sharp objects? 

"i am not going anywhere. especially now. give it to me." i demanded, holding out my hand.  she put the blade in the palm of my hand. i threw it as hard as i could. it landed somewhere among the trees in the forest; never to be found. "you told me that you were never going to do that again." i stated. 

"and you told me that those nightmares were never going to come true." 

"they arent, Cassandra. what happened to Smokey does not mean that those nightmares are going to come true.  i am still here and Janie is still here. we are never going to leave you." 

"i just cant help but feel like... that you are going to one day. that youre going to leave with the boys somewhere and never come back..." 

i wrapped my arms around her waist and held her close, "im not leaving you, Cassandra. i would never even think about leaving you. i love you too much to just let you go. and you are carrying my child and that only makes me want to stay more. i want to be a part of your life and our baby's life; and i want you and our baby to be a part of mine." i held her a little tighter, "im never leaving you. you and our baby are the best things that have ever happend to me. please understand that." she nodded her head and i kissed her temple. "c'mon, Sweetheart. lets go back inside." 

i helped her as we climbed back into the bedroom. i closed the window and crawled into the bed next to Cass. i let her rest her head on my chest and i heard her whisper, " i dont want to live here anymore, Harry. there is nothing left for me here but sad memories." 

"okay, Sweetheart. we will talk about it when the sun comes up." i kissed her head. "i love you." 

"i love you too," she mummbled before we drifted back to sleep. 

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A/N: 

hopefully i will write the next chapter tomorrow and update to,orrow too. 

and i still cant decide if i want the baby to be a boy or a girl yet. 

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lots of love! 

-jessi