Forbidden ~Book One~ Daryl Dixon~

One Shot 1. Life Without Him

Rick stayed with Tina that night, he didnt want to leave her alone. She slept for an hour and then woke up and cried for a few hours, only to fall asleep for another hour. Rick did nothing but stroke her hair as she sobbed and slept on his lap. He tried his best to hold it together for her but felt himself struggle to say the least.

"Has he really gone Rick? I mean really?" Tina asked weeping, sitting up from his lap. Poppy began crying upstairs and Tina went to her, Rick following behind as he watched her pick her up and cradle her "she will never know who he was" Tina whispered teary eyed.

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A service was held for Daryl, Tina watched from her porch as Rick spoke about him. She couldnt attend, as much as she tried to, she just couldnt it was as if a force was stopping her leaving the porch. "You dont have to go to say goodbye to him" Carol told her sitting next to her, Tina didnt even blink, she continued to stare into the distance "no one will think bad of you if you dont go" she added taking Tina's hand. "But you might regret it if you dont" Carol's words took Tina from her daydream "just think about it okay" Carol whispered to her before leaving to join the others at the service.

Tina closed her eyes as his body was lowered into the ground, still sitting on her porch she tried to pretend it wasnt happening but it was and there was nothing she could do about it. Carol was right though, she was beginning to regret not attending.

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As night fall came, Carol arrived with a casserole for Tina, another casserole that Tina would throw away and make out she had eaten. "Can you put Poppy to bed? There is something I need to do" Tina asked of Carol as she threw on her hoody and headed outside.

It was dark and so very quiet by Daryl's resting place, sitting down on the grass beside, she teased the dirt covering it with her fingers. "I couldnt come today, not because I didnt want to, i just couldnt." She sighed talking to herself, well in her head it was to Daryl. "You've shown me so much and how to be strong and now I dont think I can do it" she whispered as she wiped tears "im so scared of whats to come" she whispered again, pulling apart a tissue in her hand "i will never get over you Daryl."

Taking a deep breath she stood up and left his grave side, and walked into her house where Carol was sitting on the sofa rocking Poppy. "Feel better?" She asked as Tina shut the door, Carol could see through her she knew where she went, "i do actually" Tina smiled "i went at the right time" she added. "She is sleeping so why dont you go have a shower and get an early night, ill be here" Carol suggested, Tina mouthed 'thankyou' to her and went upstairs and grabbed a change of clothes and entered the bathroom.

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Drying herself off, she got dressed, and tied her wet hair in a bun. As she walked past her bedroom she noticed Daryl's winged waist coat hanging on a hanger across the wardrobe. Taking it off, she wrapped herself up in it and gently lay on the bed, breathing in his scent she slowly fell asleep, the tears and emotion had taking its toll on her.

When Carol came up to check on her and found her asleep, she left Tina be and tucked her in with a throw over blanket.