Love At First Sight

Chapter 63

Demi's POV

Flashing back to earlier in the year, I remember being sat in the living room alone and turning on the tv. It was a couple hours after the funeral.

"In other news, it has been confirmed that Demi and Justin Bieber's second child Joseph has passed away. It was all kept very quiet considering the fact that nobody found out until today, which happened to have been when his funeral took place. The cemetery was said to have been filled only with family and of course close friends. Demi reportedly tried to keep her composure through the ceremony until her son's coffin was lowered when she burst into tears and was held back by close friend Nick Jonas and-" I shut the television off. The report they gave had no worth to it, they had no respect for our feelings. All they wanted was a few ratings. The story was accurate though. I was trying not to cry too hard through the whole ceremony but as soon as I saw him being lowered into the ground, I literally lost it.

"No! No! This isn't fair! Don't do it! Stop, bring him back! I have to tell him I love her!" I remember running towards the people lowering him and I felt Nick tug me back. He put his arms around my chest, not letting me advance.

"You have to let go of me! I have to tell him I love him! He needs to know I love him!" I kept shouting, thrashing around in his grip. My family stared at me with sadness in their eyes. They were sad themselves, definitely. But they knew how much he meant to me and seeing me break down was hurting them as well. My mother and I had a close relationship, and Joseph loved how comfortable we were around each other.

"Nick, please. Please, let me go!" He never did break his grip on me. He held me until the coffin was finally covered in dirt. When he was finally gone. He let a few tears stream down his cheek as he led me to the spot he had just been laid to rest in.

"Demi, he knows. He knows you love him. He knows how much this is hurting you. I know he doesn't want you to be upset." He held me as I cried.

"You're right. But I just love him so much. And this hurts so much."

"But we'll get through this. We'll all be here, supporting you." I took one last look at the ground where he lay and wiped away a few tears. Nick was right, the pain will only last a while. And he wouldn't want me upset.

"Alright. Let's go." I stood up and walked to my father, hugged him tight and whispered in his ear, "I loved her, so much."

He stared back at me sadly with the same eyes that my son had, it felt like I was looking at him and not my father. Which is exactly why the words he uttered to me were so special, why they felt like closure, why they were confirmation that I had the strength to be strong and try to get this. He looked straight in my eyes and said,"I love you, Demi."

Coming back to the present day...

Justin's POV

"Demi, this has gone far enough I'm sorry. You can't keep doing this to yourself. You have to see the reality of it, and seeing his grave is the way to do it." he said as a tear escaped his own eye. "We've all accepted that we lost him." I looked out of the car window, catching a glimpse of his headstone.

"T-there's no more flowers around him, J. Can we at least go get some flowers?" I asked.

"I've already got some. They're in the back seat, Dems."

We both got out, grabbed the flowers and headed towards him. All it took was seeing his name on the stone for me to basically cry a river. Justin held me as I cried.

"I love you. I love you so much and I miss you so much and I wish you were still here and I just, I really miss you." I said, placing the flowers near him. "Your laugh, smile, humor, everything about you I miss. What happened wasn't fair. But I just want you to know I'm trying so so hard to move on with the fact that you won't come back. I really miss you, and I love you so much, it hurts. Your sister is really lost without you, and so is your dad and myself. We miss you, can't believe it's been this long that you've been gone." I whispered to my son's grave. "You did nothing wrong, just in the wrong place at the wrong time, little prince." I was going to say more, but the sobs got caught in my throat and I shook my head. Justin put his hands on my shoulders to calm me down.

"It's alright. Deep breaths." he instructed and I comply with a grin.

"See, your dad is still managing to take care of me, so is your sister, all keeping Mom together, just like what you wanted. We're closer than ever now, just wish we'd been this close when you were still here, maybe we could've saved you. But for now, rest in perfect peace my beautiful little prince. We all love you and miss you. We're gonna get going, this has been too much for me today, but I promise I'll be back."

I lightly kissed the headstone, walked back to the car and hugged Justin as hard as I could. "You'll be okay Demi."