Saving Each Other (Niall Horan Fanfic)

My Heart Hurts/ Chapter Twenty Three

After we got back to the hotel we told my parents everything, not completely everything but mostly everything. We told them that the guy who kidnapped me was just some crazy guy Niall knew before he left and when he saw me, he didn't feel Niall deserved me, so he took me. To my and Niall's surprise they believed that. My parents and brother tried to insist I go to the hospital but I just wanted to go home. Once we convinced my parents and everybody I was alright, we all packed up and were on our way home. As I stood at the airport my mind was full of thoughts and questions. Is Conor gonna continue to come after us? Niall never told me what happened after I ran away, I was too upset and scared to ask. What am I gonna do about this baby? Am I sure I'm really pregnant? Should I leave Niall if I am? Should I leave Niall period? This is no way for a child to have to live, constantly looking over his or her shoulder. It's no way for me to live. When we got to the airport, I was still shaking a bit so Niall put his jacket on me and I put my hands in the pockets. As we began the process to get on the plane, I stayed as close to Niall as I possibly could. If I had been any closer I would have been inside of him. As we waited in line to go through the metal detector and to have our carryon bags checked, I felt someone brush up against me. I jumped in fear, feeling that whoever it was could and probably would hurt me in some way.

"What's wrong?" Niall asked after he felt me jump.

"Nothing I'm fine, someone just brushed up against me" I said as I clung to him a little tighter. He didn't respond, he just caressed my cheek. When we reached the metal detector, I had to take off Niall's jacket and everything that was in it's pockets. As I emptied them, I felt a piece of crumbled up paper that wasn't there when Niall first put the jacket on me. I took it out and read it and the words on it terrified me more than I could ever explain.

"Conor is not dead, Niall thinks he is but he's alive and in the hospital. He said once he gets out, he's coming for Niall to get his money, kill him and take you and that baby as his own. I'd leave Niall if I were you. I'm warning you because I refuse to be apart of this life anymore. Conor pushed me to my limit once he raped you. I have a daughter so I couldn't be apart of that anymore. I just wanted to warn so you can protect yourself and your baby."

I was scared out of my mind. I just ripped the paper up and tossed it in the nearest trash can.

"Ma'am what was that you just threw away?" The guard asked.

"Nothing just an old receipt" I lied as I took my jacket off and put it on the belt. The guard didn't respond he just nodded. I walked threw the metal detector and grabbed my bag and jacket. Our flight wasn't for another half hour so we all sat down. I didn't know what to do. Now the hurtful thought of leaving Niall was really swimming around in my brain. I was beginning to feel like it was the life saving thing to do. As I sat next to him, I knew he could tell something was wrong. I had more than just myself to think about, I had a baby coming. I had to think about him or her. I didn't speak to anyone the entire plane ride home, I just sat with my thoughts.

"Baby please talk to me" Niall pleaded as we drove back to my house. I didn't respond, I just looked at him. I knew what he was thinking without him even saying it. He was thinking it was all his fault, and on a level of technicality it was. I refused to blame him for Conor's wrongs though. No one told Conor to kidnap and rape me. I had already decided I wasn't going to tell him about the baby for a few reasons. One I wasn't even sure and two I wasn't sure I was going to stay with him.

"Baby please, please talk to me" he pleaded again. The desperation in his voice made me want to cry, I wouldn't let myself though. I decided I would ask one of the many questions that swam in my head.

"Why didn't you tell me?" I asked him. He didn't respond. I guess that wasn't what he expected me to say.

"Why didn't you just tell me? I could have been more prepared for this. I could've tried to help you get the money. I mean why didn't you just tell me?" I said. He seemed as if he was in shock. It took him until we parked in front of my house to respond.

"I didn't tell you because I was afraid to lose you. Like I am right now." He said and his words made my heart hurt. Considering that I was thinking about exactly that. I couldn't say anything, I was completely silent again.

"I love you and the thought of losing to this killed me inside and now that you know and now that all of this has happened, I'm so scared you're going to say you can't handle this and leave me" he said and sounded as if he was going to cry. I could no longer hold back the tears, I just cried.

"Baby please don't cry" he begged me. I couldn't help it, his words physically made me hurt. I just sat there and cried.

"Baby please you're killing me, please stop crying" he begged again. I finally began to get myself together and spoke.

"I just don't know what to do" I said.

"What does that mean?" He asked with a shaky voice.

"Baby please don't say what I think you're about to say" He said as he tried not to cry but failed. I couldn't respond I just started to cry again, got out of the car and ran in my house.

AUTHOR'S NOTE

OK my lovely ones. Short chapter I know, but I love teasing you guys with cliffhangers. I know you hate me for it but it just seemed so appropriate to end it there. I was gonna keep going so I wrote more but it's gonna be on the next chapter. Let me know what ya'll think about this new chapter. Do you think she's really gonna leave Niall? What is she gonna do about the baby and Conor? Guess we'll find out next chapter. OK guys I'm on to continue with the next chaper. I love you all keep, reading, voting, commenting, and spreading the word.

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