Christen's POV
I just lost the Olympics for the team. It was all my fault. All I had to do was that one job, just put it in the back of the net. But no, I couldn't even hit it on frame.
I went over to the Swedish team and shook their hands and gave some of my old friends hugs from when I was on Tyresö.
When I was finished I didn't even look at my teammates faces, I just went straight to the locker room, I didn't even look at Mal who was like my daughter to me, just went straight to the locker room and sat with my head in my hands.
Soon I heard everyone else coming in but I didn't move. I felt a body sit beside mine and I look up and see Carli looking at me with sympathy.
I don't say anything I just stand up and get ready to go to the bus and when I am ready I just walk out the room and soon the rest of the team follows me into the bus.
Since Allie and Alex started sitting beside each other so they could plan Allie's wedding Tobin started sitting beside me and knew that I wanted space so she let me just put in my earbuds and rest my head against the window.
When we got to the hotel I started walking to the elevator when someone grabbed my arm and start pulling me towards the meal room. I turn and see Kelley is the one pulling my arm.
Within seconds we were in the meal room and we were the only ones there.
"Kel, what the heck?" I ask as she lets go.
"Press, talk to me." she says looking deep into my eyes almost like she's searching for something.
"About what?" I ask getting annoyed.
"That." she says pointing at me. "What the heck is with you right now? After the game you didn't say a word. Did you not hear Mal asking for 'Mama'?"
I just put my head down and quietly say, "No."
I feel her put a hand on my shoulder and I quickly shrug it off.
"Hey don't shut us out," she says reaching for me again as a few of the team walks in.
"Why you all probably hate me, I lost the game for us." I say starting to walk away towards the door when someone else grabbed my wrist.
"Hey, you weren't the only one to miss a PK." I look up and see Alex.
"No I wasn't, but you got us to PKs so you already scored your goal." I say more bitterly then I intended and she just shakes her head and lets go of my wrist and backs away slowly still shaking her head.
"That's enough BS Christen." Carli says stepping up. "We all saw what happened, it was none of our faults. We played our hardest and we lost. So what this was our what first loss this year. You know just as well as I do that Jill made some poor decisions but the past is the past, we started this tournament as a team and we're going to end it a team got it? Good."
I nod and look down.
"I'm still really sorry guys," I say.
"Hey Press, come with me for a sec." I hear Hope say and I look up to see her motioning towards the door and I just follow her.
Once the door is closed she pulled me into a hug and I just start crying on my shoulder.
"Hey it's going to be okay." she whispers in my ear.
"Is it?" I slowly say in between sobs.
"Babe, look at me," she says putting her hands on the sides of my face. "This wasn't you're fault. Jill shouldn't have only gave you 10 minutes then expect you to put a PK away. We are going to be fine."
I take a deep breath and she places a gentle kiss on my forehead.
"Thank you, I love you." I say pulling her in for another hug.
"I love you too, you should probably go talk to Mal. She looked pretty dejected when you walked off the pitch without saying anything to her. I think she's with Moe and Linds in her room." she says placing another kiss on my forehead and I nod thanking her once more and walking to the elevator to go to Mal and Lindsey's room.
I slowly walk up to their door and lift my hand to knock but I don't do anything.
'What if she hates me? If she thinks I ignored her?' I think to myself but quickly shake off the thought and knock on the door.
Soon it opens and I see Moe.
"Can I see Mal?" I ask quietly and she nods.
"Mal," she says turning her head to face her. "Someone's here for you."
"Who is it?" I hear her quietly ask as she walks towards the door and then she sees me.
"Mal, can I talk to you?" I ask and she nods and joins me in the hall.
"I'm so sorry I didn't say anything after the game. I was kinda just blaming myself." I say looking down at my hands.
"It's okay mama, just know that it wasn't you fault." she says with a smile and pulls me into a big head.
"I love you Mally."
"I love you to Mama."
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A/N
Okay first I'm really sorry for the no posting in like a month, I'm really trying to get fit so whatever and if you don't want to hear my rant about what the heck happened yesterday go ahead and skip this next part.
Okay first off, I always said that putting Pinoe on the roster was a mistake, she didn't play for 8 months and then you just throw her into the Olympics with no game time before in the entire year? Like what were you thinking Jill. Than Jill decides that giving Press 10 minutes is enough time to get warmed up from sitting on the bench for over 100 minutes then getting her to take a PK with a keeper that I don't think she had a shot on in the actual game? I just don't know what to think. Jill made some pretty poor decisions these last month or so.
But whatever, the past is the past now we can focus on getting better for the 2019 World Cup and the 2020 Olympics.
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Xo, Liz
