Let Me Love You ♡ Jastin ♡ {Hiatus}

∞You Have Me∞

"I'd give my life up for you, cause you are my dream."
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I stared at the dark sky above me as I felt the cold evening breeze hit my face. I wrapped my arms tightly around my knees as I just sat there, in my backyard on the nice cool grass beneath me.

It was such a calm night, so I figured why not come out here. It was so peaceful, so quiet. I placed my chin on my knees and continued to stare up ahead.

I wondered what lies in the future ahead of me. I just couldn't help but think about it. Where will I end up? Where will I be in the next ten years? Will I have my own little family? A job? Will I be married by then? And to whom?

I breathed in deeply then slowly let it out. The air was so fresh as I inhaled the nice cool breeze, almost as if I could taste it. I closed my eyes and pictured a beautiful home and the more details I added onto it the more I fell in love with the idea I was slowly creating for myself. I saw a loving, happy family living there. They seemed so content to just be around one another. It was enough for all of them, and it's just what I wanted.

I slowly began to get lost in my own little fantasies, that I was no longer aware of my surroundings. I let a smile creep it's way onto my face.

I could faintly feel someone's presence as they sat besides me and placed their arm around my shoulder as a kiss was soon placed in the shell of my ear. Not long after the person had rested their head on my shoulder.

It took me a while to come back down to earth, but I was glad I did because once I glanced down at the person beside me all my worries were no longer there.

His beautiful icy blue eyes that were oh so
mesmerizing, but that held so many emotions. The one that seemed to stand out the most was always love. But why?

He couldn't possibly love me. Could he?

He smiled up at me and I felt those all too familiar butterflies in the pit of my stomach, increasing my heart rate almost instantly.

He leaned up placing his lips against mine keeping them there for a while as I let the feeling sink it. Our lips instantly molding together perfectly. My eyes fluttering shut as he began to move his lips against mine in perfect sync. The only thing being
heard was our gentle breathing. I placed my hand on his cheek as he wrapped an arm around my waist bringing me closer to him to the point where I was straddling his lap. I placed my hands around his neck as I tugged at the hairs on the nape of his neck as he let out a muffled groan. I smiled into the kiss loving the sudden reaction

I pulled away from him only to stare deeply into his eyes. He smiled back up at me.

These were the moments I have been waiting for so long. I feel so engulfed in love.

Can I even say that at this point. Do I love Jason?

"You are beautiful"

don't say things you don't mean

"Oh but I do mean it"

"Sorry I didn't mean to actually say it out loud like that"

"It's totally fine babe. I understand that sometimes it's hard for you to see just how beautiful you are, but that's why I'm here. I'm going to show you all the unique things about yourself that you can't manage to see."

"I don't think that's possible." I didn't think it could be. Honestly I can't remember the last time I was able to actually look at myself in the mirror and not want to change something about myself. It was as if each time I did there were more and more things I wish I could change.