Closing Time

27

Kim

The night is young and so are we who are wasting it away. We arrived here sa Subic around 5 in the morning kanina at naging productive naman yung day namin. We spent almost the whole day in the beach just relaxing under the sun and road trips all over the place. Tonight we're spending it in the front porch of our rented villa. May mga naka latag na matts and bean bags for us to sit in. I am with Yeye's barkada at kasama namin si Tin. Sa lahat ng friends niya, siya yung pinaka matagal ko nang friend. She has been with me all along and today I really had fun spending time with her.

It's been hours of laughters, stories and drinks. Ayoko sanang uminom dahil just some hours back ay nalasing ako in a bad way. And ayoko parin sanang uminom because my head is still filled with problems, and me plus problems plus alcohol are definitely not a good match up. But they all pushed me. At first I only drank one, then they gave me another bottle until I realized I hit the 5th mark. Then the count just went on.

"Kimmy." I heard Tin trying to get my attention.

I felt hazy. Siguro dahil narin yun sa cigarette she was smoking. Hindi ko narin masyadong makita yung iba dahil madilim na and I think they are all wasted na rin.

"Having fun?" I tried to smile at her.

"Oo naman." she nudged my arm. "Mukhang nalalasing na tayo Kimberly ha.."

"Sus ano ba yan." my words were slurred. "Kayo kasi eh, sabi ko hindi ako iinom."

"Hindi iinom?" she laughed. "Talaga lang ha. How many have you drank na?"

"Nako, mag bibilangan pa ba tayo?" sagot ko naman. "Alam ko namang mas marami parin yung sa iyo."

"Nope, for sure mas marami parin kay Nice." loko naman niya.

Tin stood up from the bean bag she was sitting on and she extended her arms at me.

"Tara beh."

Loko pala siya eh. Parang umiikot na nga yung paningin ko tapos papatayuin pa niya ako. I just gave her groan not wanting to go with her.

"Ayun oh, may hammock dun." she continued as she lifted me up slowly.

"Hammock?" tanong ko sakanya. Siguro talagang may tama na ako kaya I can't even understand simple English.

Pinaakbay niya ako sakanya as she assisted me to walk. Hindi naman sa hindi ako makalakad pero it was just a little hard for me. Nakarating kami doon sa hammock at una niya akong hiniga. The world felt so calm nang nahiga ako. I wanted to stay here as long as possible.

"Kim tabi." sinabi niya sa akin as she pushed me to the side.

"Ayoko." I fought her.

"Huy." she laughed. "Tabi na jusko, hihigaan kita."

"Go on." I challenged her.

Lumalandi ka nanaman Kim Fajardo, I thought to myself. Ang akala ko ay hindi niya gagawin but she did. She quickly laid on top of me and she just rested her head on my chest. Ako naman still trying to tease her, I searched for her hands and held them with my own. I don't know if this was the alcohol messing up with my brain but definitely I felt something with her.

It has been a couple of minutes since we have been in this position and we successfully synchronized our breathing. It felt like we were on top of the world and we are having the time of our lives just being with each other. Suddenly, she is my calmness. Her touch felt like a necessity. Just 37 hours ago I was in the same position, heavily wanting her touch in my skin. Our heads on top each other as her arms were wrapped in mine. I am enjoying it right now, but in my head it is a different her. In my head it is not Tin who is giving me these feelings, well physically yes but mentally its totally someone different. In my head I was still with her.