Could Be Swan Queen Pt 2

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Regina picked up the phone taking some water before answering hoping her voice wouldn't sound too harsh. "Emma?"
 "Did I wake you?" Emma asked quietly
 "No you didn't" she said wondering why Emma was awake
 "Can I come over, or you here, just something... I really need you" emma said almost crying
 
Regina's heart broke when she really heard how close Emma was crying. "I can come over. Can I use magic?" she wanted to make sure it was okay, knowing Emma was still maybe bot scared of it
 "Yes" Emma said
 "I'll me there in a second" Regina magiced herself in her bedroom, phone still on her hand.
 Emma dropped her phone and got up and hugged Regina with tears flowing down her face
 Regina hugged her stroking her hair, hoping to calm her
 Emma sat back down on the bed not being able to stand still unable to calm down

 Regina sat next to her and still on her hair, she kissed her shoulder softly, waiting for Emma to speak
 "I-i can't think straight..." Emma held her hand "everytime I close my eyes I see your hand around my neck or your hand on my chest..."
 Regina let her other hand fall from her hair, just making sure not to scare her. "Try to think something happy."Regina said softy, it hurt to see how much damage she had done. "Try to calm yourself for a bit" she kissed the hand she was holding
 "Everyone knows what happened" she tried to take deep breaths "they think your a monster" she leaned onto regina "I know you didn't mean to hurt me but this won't get out of my mind..."

 She wasn't sure what to say, she knew everyone knows and knew how they tought of her. "I don't expect you to just get over with it. "
 "I don't understand how I can't... so much has happened to you and you don't bat an eye... I thought I was strong enough to handle this"
 "Belive me everything that has happened still haunts me." Regina kissed her shoulder again. "You are strong, you are handeling it well, you're just prossessing things" she herself just pushed things away, tried to deny what had happened, she knew it wasn't good for her
 "I'm not strong Regina... I try to be. Everyday I've been feeling worse and worse but keep thinking it will get better. I wish I could be better for you, I keep pushing you away when I need you most"

 "You are stong, you haven't pushed me away, you asked me here, after this, that's brave. You don't need to be better, I don't want you to be or try to be anything more than can handle"
 Emma hugged her burying her head in her chest
 "You will find a way to handle this, I know it, it's just going to take time" she said rubbing her back
 Emma felt horrible having to cry about all of this. It shouldn't be such a big deal to her. She just needed it to all go away
 
Regina felt guilty, she was guilty. She didn't know how to help Emma, it made her frustrated
 "I couldn't get through this without you" she lifted her head to kiss her cheek
 "That's why I'm here supporting you"
 "Can you stay with me tonight" she asked wiping away tears
 "Of course I can" she said and kissed her cheek, she could still feel her wet cheek under her lips
 "I'm sorry, I shouldn't be like this..." Emma felt like a fool crying over this still
 "Yes you should" Regina said "I don't mean that you have to, but this is just your way of coping"
 Emma nodded and leaned into Regina again
 Regina wrapped her arms around Emma, but not squeezing her against her body
"I love you so much"
"I love you more than anything"
 Emma kissed her chin "you know everyone's wrong about you, right?"
 "About what?" She asked and looked down to Emma
 "That you're evil and a monster. They are all wrong if they think anything like that"
 "If I would see myself through their eyes, I won't blame them"
 "Don't say that. You are anything but what they say"
 
"You are the only one I allow to see behind my mask. I can trust you"
 Emma hugged her tight
Regina hugged her back
 Emma layed back with her
 Regina kept her arms protecivly around Emma
 Emma put her fingers through Reginas hair. She always felt better and safe in her arms
 "I'll keep you safe" she said quietly