ABN (Very Bad do not read this!!) (NANOWRIMO 2013)

Chapter 13

I decided, if I was going to survive this I would have to convince myself it was all a dream, sorry a nightmare. Just a horrible, degrading, and sensual nightmare dragging on forever. That’s my only choice, and as ashamed as I was to admit it, self-loathing did not suit me. I wouldn’t hate myself for enjoying this, why should I when I didn’t really have a say in it.

“Have you fallen asleep?” His voice made me jump.

Nothing ached yet, but soon the high would fade and my body would begin to regret falling into his control. I shook my head as my eyes drooped shut, I felt him shift and then rose from the bed. Obviously he was bored, and I wasn’t talking to him.

“If I send Notari in, will you promise not to commit suicide together?” He asked as he stood up getting dressed.

The candles in the room relit and I winced rolling my face in against the pillow, My head hurt from having my hair pulled on so many times. I think I wanted to cut it all off, I would do that later when my body didn’t feel so cold or numb.

“Hey!” He shouted.

I felt the bed dip making me have to readjust, “What?” I whispered into the pillow.

Images of the troll creatures, the Knight Galio, the blood and the fact that now he had horns. Even the air, it all was different it was bizarre. It defied my logic, and I had lived my entire life surrounded by pure logic. Doctor father, Lawyer mother. There was no room in there for imagination or fairy tales, just plain hard facts that led to a good life with a bright future.

My stomach lurched as the memory of the blood pouring from the hole in the one’s chest. The sound of the still beating severed heart in C-A’s hand. There was nothing left in my stomach to throw up though, I was completely empty.

“Pity seems as though you may die sooner than I expected.” He murmured running his hand down my spine.

One could only wish. Even if this was a dream, it couldn’t have come from my mind. Maybe I was tapping into Laya’s mind and that’s why I was seeing all of this. It was just her crazy messed up imagination.

“Ignoring me isn’t going to gain you anything.” C-A snapped angrily.

“Leave me alone…” I sighed rolling away from him.

“You don’t tell me what to do.”

I scoffed and sat up slowly, “Do you know how obnoxious and spoiled that sounds? You sound like a child trying to argue with his mother-” The back of his hand was all but a blur catching me in the right cheek.

Blood poured into my mouth and I rolled onto the floor, I could feel my brain rattling around inside of my head. I curled next to the bed pulling my knee’s against my chest, it felt as though I had been hit with a baseball bat.

“Don’t mention my mother if you want to live.”

I didn’t respond, seconds later I heard a woman gasp then stumbled across the room.

“Holy crap, Ash!” I glanced up at Notari and felt my eyes fill with tears. She ran around the end of the bed and dropped to her knee’s opening her arms and wrapping me in the safety they offered.

“That bastard hit you, god I’m going to kill him.” She hissed through clenched teeth her voice wavering.

“I can’t make up my goddamn mind.” I cried, she rubbed small circles on my back.

“What do you mean?”

I shook my head swallowing a large pool of blood, “I accept this, and then after he uses me I hate it even more. He’s using me.”