Weakness

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       I ran on the trail behind my uncles house everyday for the first 2 weeks, it was 1 1/2 miles to the end and 1 1/2 miles back. I decided I wanted to lose weight. Something was yelling at me in my head say "you're fat!" "You're disgusting!" "You're ugly!" "You're absolutely worthless!" I hated it. I wanted to change.

       I stepped on the scale: 93.4 lbs. I felt like that wasn't thin enough for someone who was 12 and 4'10. I also tried eating less, from 3 meals to only 2. From 2 to 1 and a half. No matter what the scale said, it wasn't good enough! After a week I only lost half a pound. I need to try harder. My goal was to weigh at least 80 by August 23rd, the first day of school.
It was June 7th and I had no time to lose.

       A dark cloud started to form over my head. I almost felt suicidal. Did my dad hate me? Was it my fault that they got a divorce? I think it was my fault. Why?

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