Stuck Inside Four Walls

Chapter twenty two

Today I have an important meeting with my doctor, so important that my doctor made sure that my aunt would be there. This scared me immensely. What if I was on my death bed? Or I needed more intense treatment? I can barely hold back my tears. I could hardly sleep last night thinking about it. It's now around seven in the morning and Harry is gone to the cafeteria to get us some tea. He knew something was bothering and said that we would talk about it when he gets back.

As if on command, he walk in the room with two cups of tea. He pulls his usual chair over next to me and passes me my mug. I thank him and he nods as to tell me to tell him.

"I um, have an important with my doctor today. She said that it was crucial that my aunt was there with me. What if it's something really bad? What if I don't have much time left? I'm not ready to die, Harry I can't leave you." I choke out, my voice breaking at the end and the tears are loose.

"Shhh, come here." He says and pulls me into a hug. He rubs small circles into my back, helping to calm me down. His touch is so soothing.

"I can't tell you that everything will be perfect, but what I can tell you, is that I will be with you regardless. You are so strong Alyssa. Don't forget that, ever." He tells looking directly into my eyes, as if he's peaking into my soul.

When he is talking to me, all of my worries are lifted. As cheesy as it sounds, it's one hundred percent true. I doesn't matter what we are talking about, food, famous people, our relationship, your hopes and dreams, basically anything. I can't remember how I was without him. Strange how one person can change you so much, they are the piece of the puzzle you have always been missing, but never knew it. I have never been as attached to anyone as I am to him, ever since my mum that is. It's not that I didn't have a good relationship with my dad, but me and my mum had a special connection, that I didn't think anyone could ever fill. Harry fills the space that she originally had.

I have been crying in his arms, for god only knows how long. But he didn't seem to mind, and neither did I. His arms were warm and having them wrapped around me, I felt like nothing could hurt me. But then I remembered, I already have something hurting me, and it's eating me from the inside out.

My sobs have finally died down slightly. Harry breaks the hug and looks up at me. I can tell that he was crying too, as I could see the water stains printed on his cheeks.

"We are going to get through this together ok? I just want to know if you are alright." He says, not breaking our gaze.

"I will be." I reassure him, I don't know what that means to him, but the truth is, that it is a partial lie. I know that having him with me helps tremendously, but in reality he can't cure the disease that has taken over me. God bless his heart, he would try if it was possible for him to cure me. But he has completed me, and that's more than I could ever ask for from him.

But I think I love him.

(A/N) sorry guys for not updating yesterday. I know this chapter is kind of confusing, but this is a explanation of her feelings towards him really. Next chapter will be the meeting. Comment your guesses