Stuck Inside Four Walls

Chapter thirty seven

I wake up with a pounding headache and an overwhelming nausea. I forget where I am for a minute, but the memories of last night aren't forgotten. I get up and make my way into the kitchen where I see Ellie sitting with a cup of tea in hand. I sit down and she gives me a sympathetic smile.

"Do you want to talk about it?" She asks. I don't necessarily want to remind myself of the tragedy, but I do need some advice on what I should do. I nod and she sets down her mug.

"So, are you going to go talk to him?" I haven't really considered talking to him. I remember last night thinking I was never going to talk to him again, but now I'm thinking other wise.

"I think I have to. I want to hear an explanation from him of what happened, a reasonable one hopefully. I still have a sliver of hope that there's a reasonable explanation for what he did." She nods.

"I agree. I don't think he would have gave you that ring if he was going to cheat on you." The ring. I totally forgot about the ring. I don't know how but I did. Now I'm even more confused. This confirms my idea of going back to see him.

"I think it's worth going back to see him. You would need to go back there anyways to get your things, if you're leaving that is." I don't want to stall this anymore, I get up from the table and go to grab the small amount of things I've brought with me.

"Wait, where are you going?" She asks following me.

"I'm not going to put this off any longer. I need to find out what really happened." I grab my coat and purse and she takes hers as well.

The drive doesn't seem near as long this time, probably because I was preoccupied the whole time thinking of what I'd say to him once I saw him. I'm going to try and stay calm as long as I can, but I'm not quite sure how that'll work out for me. What if she's there? The thought makes me shiver. I don't know what I'll do if she is there with him. Before I get to think about it any further, we pull up to the building I call home, and I hope I still will after this conversation. I see his car in the parking lot, so I know he's here.

"I'll be right out here ok?" I nod and she reaches over and hugs me. I sigh and pick myself up and make my way up to the door of the apartment. Do I knock or just walk in?  

'Its your apartment too' a voice in my head reminds me. I shakily grab my key out of my purse and push it into the lock. I open the door and walk in and it appears as if I've walked into a garbage dump. The garbage can is overflowing with cups and the counter is lined with empty bottles of whiskey and beer. Picking all of this up would usually be the first thing I'd do, but it will take me hours, and I need to talk to Harry immediately. I notice a note on the kitchen table.

Thanks for letting us stay here last night, you guys are the best :) - Zayn & Perrie

I thank god it wasn't a note from whoever that girl is because that would have sent me over the edge, the mess already has me a bit pissed off, I should have expected the mess, but I didn't for some reason. I quickly send Ellie a text letting her know I'm ok and that she can leave. She responds wishing me good luck.

I turn the corner and see our bedroom door closed. I'm scared to open the door considering what I saw last night. I push away my fears and open the door. I see Harry lying across the bed, sound asleep. I thank god that there is nobody lying next to him. No matter how much I don't want to wake him, I'm not here to watch him sleep, I'm here to figure out what the hell he was doing last night. I shake his arm and I see his eyes flutter open.

"Alyssa? What are you doing? What time is it?" He groggily asks and I check my phone.

"Past eleven." I respond blandly as he sits up and eyes me.