Safe House ➳ Sidemen

Forgiveness

Lucy

Anael was finally gone. She came back trying to get us to forgive her in a second, but that's not how things work.

She's the reason why most of our friends our dead. Everything felt like it was crashing down, and Chris and I were practically broken up.

When he said to kill Allie I got even more annoyed and mad then I already was, it wasn't her fault, it was Anael's and she shouldn't get blamed for something she wasn't able to control.

But Chris and I always ended up being around each other, always in each other presence but never talking, only tiny glances in the corner of our eyes.

Harry was dead though, and I think I took it too hard on him. Harry was there for him, his whole life when Chris didn't have anyone.

Maybe I took it too hard on him, maybe he was just trying to protect me like Harry protected him. He was just being my boyfriend.

I got up and rushed up the stairs into Allie's room where she was sitting on her bed looking pretty horrible.

"Allie?"
She jumped out of her thoughts and looked at me, "What?"

"I'm sorry for everything that's happened." I say, placing a hand on her shoulder. "There's nothing you should be sorry for." She shrugged.

"Yes there is, Chris and I are fighting and we're both practically broken up and Cal is dead." My voice cracked a bit at the end.

Allie sighed, "I-i'm sorry too Lucy."
"It's okay, you weren't in control." I embraced her in my arms and she hugged back. 

After a couple seconds I pulled back and waved bye going to Chris and I's room. 

I took in a deep breath and placed my hand on the door handle pushing it and walking in.

He was sitting on the bed on his phone with a monotone expression on his face. 
"Chris." I spoke, my voice being shakey.

He didn't respond or look up, I sighed and closed the door walking over to the bed sitting on the end.

"C-chris, I'm sorry."
Chris shrugged but continued to do whatever he was doing on his phone.

"I'm sorry, I was being selfish. Harry was the only one there for you when you had no one but him. He took care of you and your were just being my boyfriend trying to protect me, but we now know that it wasn't even Allie controlling herself, it was Anael using my sister as a vessel, b-but our friends are dead, Cal is even dead. But this isn't about me, this is about you I'm apologizing to you and I'm trying to get you to talk to me again and look at me because I feel horrible I completely made the whole situation worse, you were going through a hard time Harry had just dyed. I'm sorry Chris I love you so much and I'm just so sorry." I say, wiping my eyes. I was started to cry in the middle of my apologie.

Chris sighed and put his phone down turning it off and coming over to me, he grabbed my wrist and looked me in the eyes.

"Please, stop crying, I feel like a horrible boyfriend now." 
"You're not Chris, you shouldn't feel bad. I should, I was being selfish."

He shook his head and placed a hand on my waist and the other on the back of my neck and placed his lips on mine.

I missed the feeling of his lips on mine, and it felt like the first time we ever kissed.
I kissed back and wrapped my arms around his neck, pulling myself closer to him.

He put his arms on my hips and pulled me onto his lap.
I pulled away and smiled, "I missed you."
"I missed you too. I love you Lucy."

"I love you Chris."

-

Making up with Chris was the best thing ever, we were both happy but I can tell he was still sad because of everything that's happened. 

"I'm sorry Luce." Chris mumbles, "For what?" I ask, playing with his fingers.
"Being a shit boyfriend."

I sighed and looked up at him pressing my lips to his lightly, "You're not, we were both just going through rough patches, Harry had died, and I was being a horrible girlfriend."

"But I told you to get away from your own sister I-" I cut Chris off, "You had every right to tell me that."

"No I didn't. You're right Allie didn't have control over her body, and I said to kill her that's a horrible thing to do as aboyfriend." Chris shook his head, running his hands up and down my sides.

"Chris it's okay, we were going through rough patches. I love you so much and nothing will change that, it's okay." I tell him seriously keeping my face close to his looking into his eyes.

"I just love you alot, thank you Lucy."
"I love you too much."

He placed his lips onto mine and put a hand in my hair and the other on my waist. I put my hands on his shoulders and the back of his neck as he pulled me closer.

We layed there making out for a while until there was a cough at the door, I didn't even know it had opened.
We pulled away and I turned around to see Tobi at the doorway.

"Can I help you?" Chris asks, "Yea KFC is down stairs." I jumped up and ran down the stairs into the kitchen. 

"Where's my popcorn chicken?!" I've been craving it for the longest time. JJ passes it to me and chuckled.

"You're in a good mood what happened?" Sophie asks, "We made up." Chris answers coming up behind me.

"Awe finally!" Ethan yells, I smiled and kissed Chris's cheek. "Yea, we couldn't stay mad at each other forever."
"Okay stop being cute, let's eat!" Josh yells. I laughed and threw a piece of food into my mouth. 

It felt normal but there was still a lot more thing to make it too.