MESS-ENGER (COMPLETED)

105:ENGER

"Do you know Messiah Trinidad Sir?" I asked the man standing infront of the station.

The guy looked at me and was shocked. "Trevor Perez? Oh my God! Ikaw nga," he shouted.

I smiled. This gay is my fan. "Can you help me sir?"

"‘Wag mo akong tawaging sir. Madam na lang." He chuckled. "Si Iya ba kamo?"

"Yes Madam," I said and he smiled.

"How are you related kay Dj Mask?"

My eyes widened. "She's Dj Mask?" I asked with disbelief.

He frowned. "Hindi mo alam? Teka sino ka ba sa buhay ni Iya? Baka naman stalker ka niya? Sa pagkakaalam ko, singer ka. Idol nga kita e. Kaya imposible namang kuya ka niya?" he asked with inquiring look.

I cleared my throat. "I'm her boyfriend," I lied. I just want to say it.

He laughed. "Seryoso ka?"

"I'm serious."

"Weh di nga?"

Fudge! This guy is irritating. I can't handle him. "Badly serious."

He raised his brows. "Hindi nga? Kelan pa nagka-boyfriend si Iya? Bakit hindi mo alam na siya si Dj Mask?"

"She didn't tell me okay?" My voice began to rise. "Where is she?"

He laughed again. "Relax. Ito naman ang impatient," he exclaimed. He looked his watched. "6:41 palang. Baka nasa powder room. Gusto mo bang tawagin ko?"

"No, I just want to know where she is. Ahm can you do me a favor?"

"Wow, kakakilala palang natin, favor na agad?"

"Please. I just wanted to do this."

He held his chin. "Hmm gwapo ka naman kaya pagbibigyan na kita. Tsaka priveledge na din dahil artista ka. Basta kaya ko okay?" he said.

"Can I be her first caller?"

"What? Para saan?"

"I just want to say something to her before I leave. I can't tell this personally to her."

"Huwag mo sabihing isisigaw mo sa buong mundo ang break-up niyo. Wag naman. Ang harsh n'un."

"No. It's not like that. I promise."

"Kung sabagay, ngayon na ang last day niya sa radio station na 'toh. Bibigyan ko siya memorable na caller. Basta i-dial mo agad ito mamaya." He gave me a number. "Yan ang number ng radio station namin."

"Can I asked again?"

"Haha grabe. Tanungan talaga ako ganern? Oh siya sige. Basta pa-picture mamaya. Ano 'yun?"

"Why do you say that this will be her last airing?"

"Magiging regular na kasi siya sa TV Network. Naaprubahan ang application niya," he said. I nod.

"Thank you."

"Sus, walang anuman. Sige na, picture na tayo," he said excitedly.

After he take pictures, I went to the comfort room. I saw my reflection in the mirror. I washed my face with the warm water and look in the mirror again.

I don't know what to feel when Drix told me that my lolo is dying. As if everything I did to fix myself were wasted in an instant. I remembered our last conversation with Drix before he left me here in the station.

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"Mahal ka ng kapatid ko. Alam ko ring mahal mo siya. Kung tutuusin nga, parang kayo na e. Para lang kayong nagkaroon ng LQ noong umalis ka pero nagkabati din dahil sa tadhana. Pero Trevor, ayokong mabuhay si Iya na may galit ang pamilya mo sayo. Dahil ang galit nila sayo, ay galit din nila sa kapatid ko."

"I can't do what you wanted. I will never get away and leave her again. She's worth it than those people who hurted me. I don't want to spend my life longing for her again," I said.

"Hindi ko sinasabing iwanan mo na naman siya ng walang dahilan. Iwanan mo siya ng may dahilan para meron siyang bagay na panghahawakan," he said.

I faced him. "I don't want to make decision because of what you said. I have my own---"

"No," he cut me off. "You have to trust me. I'll do everything to make Iya remember you. I will do everything for her not to forget you."

I shook my head. "I can't hurt her Drix. I can't."

He tapped my shoulders. "Tandaan mo Trevor, masasaktan mo lang si bunso."

I clenched my fists. "What if she'll never accept me again when I come back? What if my parents still hate me despite of everything I did?" A tear escaped from my eyes.

"Kung hindi ka pa rin nila kayang tanggapin, that's the time na bumalik ka."

"I really can't get what you wanted."

He smiled. "Maniwala ka sa 'kin. This is for both of you."

I held my forehead. I closed my eyes. I felt numb now. I'm already tired. Tired of all the things that I didn't even deserve.

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I saw tears streaming down my faces. I wiped my face with my hanky. "This is the last time you'll lower your pride Trevor. This is the last time," I said to myself.

I locked the door of the comfort room. I opened my phone and inserted my earphone. I went to 14.3. I laughed when I remember how I admire the voice of Dj Mask. I didn't know that she's also the girl I love. Fate really love to play love. Destiny really love to play those people who were inlove.

My heart began to beat faster than usual. Only her can make my heart beat like this. Only her can make my nerves uncontrollable.

I saw a notification. Messenger girl sent me a message. I opened it.

MESS: Huwag ka munang matulog. Hanggang 9pm lang ang work ko. Chat tayo mamaya. May aaminin ako maliban sa gwapo ka na sa paningin ko.^_^

I smiled painfully. God, why does it hurt like this? Why can't we just be a normal lovers who walk in the street holding hands? Why can't we just be like those inlive people who eat in a fine restaurant? Why does it have to be like this?

"Magandang gabi mga suki! Sing-ganda ng inyong mga ngiti!This is 14.3 love radio. Ang tambayan ng mga sawi. Tayo'y magsama-sama sa isa na namang heartbreaking na gabi. Ang inyong lingkod, Dj Mask, ang dj na maganda, walang halong bola. Sa malamlam na gabi, inyong makakasama!" she said cheerfully. I began to get nervous.She played songs first.

💤 I waited 'til I saw the sun
I don't know why I didn't come
I left you by the house of fun
I don't know why I didn't come

I don't know why I didn't come
When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly away
Instead of kneeling in the sand💤

My hands is shaking as I dialed their station's number. I almost dropped my phone because my hands are trembling..

💤Catching teardrops in my hand
My heart is drenched in wine.
But you'll be on my mind forever

Something has to make you run
I don't know why I didn't come
I feel as empty as a drum
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come.💤

When the song stops, she answered the call. I can no longer hold my phone properly. I sat in the clean tiles of the bathroom.

"Ayan! Ito na po ang unang love requester natin ngayon gabi. Hello, magandang gabi," she said. Fudge! I'll gonna miss this voice again. I closed my eyes and controlled myself from crying. Who have thought that Trevor Reyes will cry over a girl?

I breath heavily. I couldn't refrain from thinking.

"Hello ulit," she said again.

I clenched my fists. My chest is pounding like I'm running. I felt my heart being ripped from my chest.

"Hello Dj Mask?" I find my voice at last!

(by:hiddenheartless)