Hidden ~ A joe sugg fanfiction

Chapter 37

Ashleys POV

The sky is clear. Each star glimmers in the night like sequins shining in the light.

You could say I'm a hopeless romantic, I guess. When I was younger I was a big reader. Books were my escape and if you asked me to choose between pride and prejudice and To kill a mocking bird then I would pick pride and prejudice any day.
(I'm not actually big into classic books such as the above, so I had to research these 😂).

Romantic books just gave me the needed escape I yearned for and helped fuel my young little fantasies. I've always thought that everyone meets their Prince Charming and once they do; it's a roller coaster that only goes up from there. But oh how wrong I was.

My heart has been shattered so many times that when I met Cameron, I found it hard to trust him. And when I did finally decide to trust him, I never wanted to let go. He was the only person in my life that truly controlled how I felt everyday. If he didn't kiss me goodnight, then I would lose sleep over it. Over time I came to realise that maybe not every guy I meet will be Prince Charming or that every relationship will fulfill the empty feeling in my heart.

Some relationships happen to teach you important life lessons instead. Although Cameron and I's relationship was sweet; I never had that feeling in my heart where I thought he was the one. You know that feeling where you come to realise how lucky you are to have a certain person and that you're willing to give your all to them? That was never there with him.

He didn't know what truly made me happy. And as I've said before... I'm a hopeless romantic and Cameron just didn't understand why certain things meant so much to me. Things like just sitting with the person you love and doing nothing, just concentrating on the steady heartbeat of the other or sitting on the roof of your house and watching the stars as they twinkle in the black canvas of the night.

So when I found myself sitting on the slanted roof of my house next to Joe Sugg, you could say that I've never felt such a yearning in my heart before. The air sends chills down my spine but Joe's touch ignites sparks that warms my heart. His hair waves in the wind so Joe constantly shoves his hand through it to fix the fine strands that run astray. My grey shirt flaps in the cool breeze causing goosebumps to stand up on my arms. Joe notices my battle with the cold and hastily throws off his grey jumper.

"Here, you look freezing. We wouldn't want you catching a cold now would we?" Joe grins.

"Oh no Joe. It's fine, you wear it please" I plead with him.

He shakes his head and drops the jumper into my hands. I laugh and thank him.

"It's a pleasure m'lady" he smirks. I pull on the baggy jumper and pull the sleeves over my hands to stop the breeze traveling through the gentle fabric. The jumper comes to just above my short gym shorts.

Red letters printed on the jumper read "San Francisco"

One of my favourite cities.

"So Ashley... Have you ever been in love? I've seen your romantic classics stacked on your desk. Does reality fulfil your hopes yet or not?" Joe asks wielding his infamous smirk.

Right now? Yes.

"I don't know Sugg... I wouldn't want to spoil the story" I laugh back.

"Am I allowed to read the story?" Joe asks.

"I haven't made my life into a book yet but if I'm feeling like it then I might consider telling you"

He chuckles. A low chuckle. I feel like I'm in a fifty shades of grey book with the way he's making me feel recently.

"Can I tell you mine? I've never shared it with anyone... But I feel like I trust you more than I've ever trusted anyone else" Joe tells me. His voice is shaky. I can tell he's nervous. His hand that supports him behind my back shifts further so he's closer to me.

I nod letting him know that I'm willing to listen.

"Of course" I whisper.

He takes a breath and looks into my eyes.

"I got my heart broken a year ago when the girl of my dreams moved away. She was amazing. Still is. When she came back home three weeks ago my heart couldn't take it. I was overjoyed. Caspar knew how I felt about her and although I love my friends encouraging me to go for it; sometimes their little plans go wrong and my heart begins to break a little more everyday. But every so often she would do little things that would send my heart racing. Giving me a little bit of hope to keep me going. It was when she plucked up the courage to sing in front of thousands of people that I held my breath and didn't know what to expect but oh how angelic she sounded. She sounded like an angel sent from heaven and to me... She's the one and i can't get enough of her. At one point it sounded like she was singing to me and at that moment in time the lyrics of the song made sense. She's the most beautiful girl inside and out and her laugh is incredibly contagious. She's the cutest woman and she loves and supports every one of her friends. She's addictive. Like a drug, I get high off everything she does, how she makes me feel and how she's not afraid to be herself. She drives me insane... Wild... So when Jack came along and managed to catch her attention more than me I was so jealous. So so jealous. Why couldn't I be the one to make her laugh and smile? But now I can't handle it. This sounds like some long speech that I've rehearsed over and over but it's not. This is all coming from the heart and I've got to tell her. I've got to tell her I love her. God I love you so fucking much Ashley" Joe cries out exasperated.

I stare at him stunned. It's happening. My mind struggles to process everything that just happened and suddenly I find myself kissing him.

I'm at on his lap with my hands holding his face as My lips softly move against his. After a second of shock Joe responds placing his hands on my hips and shoving me closer to me. My legs wrap around his waist and i groan as he pulls me even closer. Strands of my hair fall and Joes neatly structured quiff becomes messy and ruffled as I run my hands through his hair. My mouth opens and his tongue searches every corner of my mouth.  

The kiss becomes heated and I begin to run out of breath. Joe removed his lips from mine and begins planting kisses on my neck. I tilt my head back and allow him to touch my exposed skin. He pulls away and kisses me on the lips strongly one more time. 

"I love you so much Joseph" I whisper and hug him tightly kissing him lightly one more time before glancing back up at the clear sky.

Maybe it's time to start writing my own romantic novel.

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The last part of this chapter was kind of awkward to write but GUYS... THE JASHLEY SHIP HAS SAILED!!!

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