I got up from the bed and ran downstairs to out room and locked the door behind me and I ran into the bathroom. Thru all the pain was I just had to run and when I went to the bathroom I cleaned all the blood up and I got in the tub and took a long hot shower.
When I got out I out on a big shirt and some pajama pants and laid down on the bed and I called Renee.
PHONE CALL
Me: "Hey Renee can you bring the boys over today?"
Renee: "Yeah is everything okay?"
Me: "Yea I just miss my babies"
Renee: "No you sound like something happened are you okay?"
Me: "Yes girl everything is fine I'm just laying here thinking about my babies"
Renee: "I don't believe that you sound scared and like somebody did something to you but yeah I'll bring them over tomorrow around 1 and while I'm there we can start planning for Jamaica"
Me: "Sounds good to me"
Renee: "Alright take care of yourself. Bye"
Me: "Bye"
END OF PHONE CALL
I threw my phone on the bed next to me and I laid down in so much pain physically and emotionally. I started crying, I have no idea what just happened. I didn't know if that was rape or just hardcore well it don't even matter I'm not ever doing that again.
'Xavier: "Baby open the door"
I curled up putting my knees in my chest and I wrapped my arms around my legs staring at the door crying at the person on the other side.
'Xavier: "Come on baby don't make me bust the door open"
I still didn't say anything and then he busted the door open and I cried even harder.
'Xavier: "Baby I'm sorry I didn't...", he tried to touch me but I just moved. "I'm sorry baby I didn't know I was hurting you. I thought you were along for it"
Me: "I told you when we first started I didn't want it like that"
'Xavier: "I'm sorry baby just let me see"
Me: "No I hate you right now. Just leave me alone", I sank in the covers and pulled the covers over my body.
'Xavier: "Now out of all the years we've been knowing each other you know I can't do that", he pulled the covers off my body and laid on top of me cuddling me. I didn't want him to but I needed him so I just wrapped my arms around him and cried. "I'm sorry baby and I won't do that no more okay"
Me: "Okay", he kissed away my tears until I fell asleep.
'XAVIER'S POV
THE NEXT MORNING
I felt real bad about last night with Debbie but she shouldn't have been teasing me the way she was and always looking sexy like that. I don't know what came over me but it did and with all of me I put that into last night. I thought it was good until I looked down and saw she was bleeding and the look on her face made me feel real bad so I got up and went to the mall and bought a whole bunch of stuff for her and cooked her some breakfast.
Me: "Good morning beautiful wife", I said coming in with her breakfast in my hands.
Debbie: "Hey", she was super hoarse I barely understood what she said.
Me: "You hungry?"
Debbie: "Yeah"
I walked over to her and fed her breakfast to her.
Me: "Hold on baby I got some stuff for you". I walked out the room and brought some bags in that was hers.
Debbie: "No 'Xavier I don't need any of that"
Me: "I know you don't need it but I want to tell you sorry for what I did and I'm going to cater to you until you believe me"
Debbie: "I do believe you 'Xavier"
Me: "No you don't because you calling me 'Xavier. Whenever we get into it or something or you mad at me you always call me by my first name"
Debbie: "So what you want me to call you Dwayne"
Me: "I really miss you calling me Zaye"
Debbie: "I haven't seen him in years, he disappeared when we moved to New York"
Me: "Well he's going to come back real soon"
Debbie: "I'll believe it when I see it", she tried to get out the bed but when she stood up she almost fell so I ran over to her and helped her sit back down on the bed.
Me: "Take it easy yo legs are still sore baby"
Debbie: "Its yo fault I can't walk"
Me: "You d*mn right", I said biting my lip and rubbing my hands together.
Debbie: "Well I hope you enjoyed it because you ain't getting none for a long time"
Me: "Bet you I'm gone get some tonight"
Debbie: "Put something on it"
Me: "I put it on another round. So after we done I'm going in for another round. And if I lose then I'm gone hit"
Debbie: "It ain't working like that. If you lose you can't hit at all while we in Jamaica for the weekend"
Me: "Aight then it's a bet and I get to hit any time I want while we there", we did our bet shake and man I swear I'm winning this bet.
I put on some basketball shorts and I called the crew up to play some basketball in the gym. I need a little more pocket money anyway. When I walked out the bathroom Debbie was putting on her lingerie so I walked up behind her holding her kissing her neck.
Debbie: "Uh uh pa'tna you ain't winning this bet. So you may look but no touch"
Me: "Girl when I married you that made it mine. All of you is mine"
Debbie: "I wish it was the same all the way around", she mumbled
Me: "What?"
Debbie: "Nothing. Renee is bringing the boys over at one, what you have planned for today?"
Me: "The crew coming over to play basketball. And after that we can check some people off that list"
Debbie: "Alright daddy"
Me: "Wow"
Debbie: "What?"
Me: "You couldn't have said that last night I when I was tearing that thang up", I said smacking her butt. Normally it'll just shake a little but when I looked at it it jiggled for a couple of seconds. "D*mn what you been eating? Yo booty ain't eva jiggled like that"
Debbie: "I don't know it just got like that"
Me: "Then it must be jelly cause jam don't jiggle like that", she laughed and turned around wrapping her arms around my neck kissing me. I picked her thigh up and laid her on the bed.
Debbie: "Nossah", she pinched my side and got up.
Me: "I'm a get you for that"
Debbie: "Catch me if you can", she ran out the room limping and I started to chase after her but once she turned a corner I lost her and then the doorbell rang.
I opened the door and it was Eric and Star.
Me: "Baby Star here". "What up boy you ready to lose yo money", I said dapping him up welcoming them inside.
Eric: "Naw is you ready to lose yo money"
Me: "I guess we gone see. Hey Star how you feeling?"
Star: "I'm feeling a lots better than I did before. I'm good now though I just need to talk to Debbie because she's an expert in the department I'm looking for"
Debbie: "Yes. Oh my gosh Star girl I miss you so much. How are you?"
Star: "I'm feeling better and girl we need to talk like for real"
Debbie: "Alright. And hey Eric"
Eric: "Hey Debbie or should I say Double D", I started laughing and have him a hug.
I walked Star into the living room and just when I sat down my legs started hurting super bad. I had to readjust the way I was sitting my legs was hurting so bad.
Star: "What happened to you and why you ain't sitting right?"
Me: "You don't even want to know believe me. Now what you want to talk about"
Star: "Well guess what?"
Me: "What?"
Star: "I'm pregnant!"
Me: "Yaayy! I'm so happy for you guys but why you sound like you don't want to be?"
Star: "Oh I definitely want to be I just want to be like you on murder street. All I thought about was killing when I was in the hospita but then they said the baby lived through all that and I was like oh my goodness I didn't even know I was pregnant"
Me: "I am so excited for you but you can't do anything until after the baby and after that to because you need bonding time with your baby. Believe me you gone wish you had it, I know I do. I had to give Jaidyn up when we were supposed to take him home in New York and then I was in the hospital after Jabari so I didn't get to take either one of them home"
Star: "Well y'all are going to get another chance because we all know you and 'Xavier having another baby"
Me: "Not for a while shoot. Man we did it last night and I swear an animal or monster just couldn't describe the type of sex we had. He took hard-core to a whole new level like for real. My body was in positions I never even thought could happen and I know positions I used to be a stripper", I said pointing at myself.
Star: "D*mn that's why you sat down like that and walking funny?", she said smiling.
Me: "Girl you just don't know. When I looked down after we finished there was blood and not a little but not a lot either. And when I woke up this morning I had to find my legs because I couldn't feel them at all"
Star: "Girl if you was pregnant that baby would've been so gone he putting it down like that", we both started laughing and then the doorbell rang.
I got up slowly to answer the door and in came Quinn, T, Buddah, and Jay P.
Jay P: "Hey Double D", he said hugging me coming in the house. They all had basketball clothes on, Jordan's, and a sports bag to keep they stuff in.
Me: "Hey y'all"
Quinn: "Wassup ma?", he gave me a hug but he was squeezing me tight like he was my nigga. I was trying to let loose but he wouldn't let me and then I mouthed help me to 'Xavier when I saw him come around the corner coming from the gym.
'Xavier: "If you don't let her go I'm gone bast a cap in yo a**", he let me go and turned around laughing dapping 'Xavier up.
Quinn: "My bad bro, you ready for yo money to be gone"
'Xavier: "Nigga I've been beating you in basketball since we was in high school"
Quinn: "We was supposed to go to the NBA together but nigga you just had to graduate early"
'Xavier: "H*ll yeah I couldn't wait to leave. That sh*t was never for me", they kept talking and walking until they made it to the gym.
I walked back in the living room and just before I sat down the doorbell rang again.
Me: "Baby!", I opened my arms to pick up Jaidyn and he ran into my arms. I picked him up hugging and squeezing him as tight as I could until he started squirming to get out of my arms. I finally let him go and he ran straight to the gym with his dad. I don't even know how he knew he was in there. I laughed and turned around and Renee came in with Jabari in his car seat with Zeke, Lauren, Pj, and Jacoby behind her.
Lauren: "Hey aunt Debbie", she said hugging me.
Me: "Hey girl what you doing?"
Lauren: "Nothing we just came over to visit and get out the house for a while"
Me: "Well y'all are more than welcome. Pj, Zeke the guys are in the gym playing basketball", they gave me a hug and they walked into the gym. I went and put Jabari down for a nap after I fed him and came back downstairs and all the lady's was in the living room talking and catching up.
Star: "So Lauren, I see you and Pj still together how y'all doing?
Lauren: "Oh my gosh everything is going super good. I be checking females here and there because they try to get out of place and he be on the verge of fighting some people that be taking stuff to far like okay a verbal compliment in front of my man is already a lot but you trying to touch me in a definite not"
Renee: "Uh you didn't tell me that", she said sitting up looking at her.
Lauren: "I know but that's just because I didn't want you stressed and worried. You go through enough without me stressing you at and besides daddy is so protective I didn't even think you needed to be bothered with me and Pj", I just shook my head because she reminded me so much of myself. And me thinking that is what got me going through everything I did, not telling my mom and running away from the problems made me end my childhood when I was 12.
Me: "Lauren come here", I got up from the couch in the least amount of pain I could and went to the kitchen so nobody could hear us talking.
Lauren: "Wassup auntie", she said sitting on the counter.
Me: "Hey look I just want to tell you this because you're about to go down the wrong road and you don't even know it"
Lauren: "How? With me and Pj?"
Me: "No. With you not talking to your mom. Look I wish I would've told me mom what was going on and maybe she could've saved me but I didn't so I went through life going through stuff instead of listening and learning for myself"
Lauren: "You had a good life what you mean? You graduated top of your class, you have two sons, and you're married living in the big old palace and you have a dynasty to leave behind you. You not telling your mom stuff was good because she still didn't have to stress"
Me: "Your not listening to what I'm saying. You don't know half of what I did to get this. You have no idea what I had to do to get this...this palace. Yeah I have a dynasty to leave behind but I don't want anyone to go through what I did to get it"
Lauren: "Wait...how did you get this"
Me: "It's a long story"
Lauren: "I have time"
Me: "Well when I first started going out with 'Xavier he was going through things at home that I didn't know about and he ended up beating me up. Instead of me going home to my mom I stayed on the streets crying and me ex found me and he took me to his boss' trap and I stayed there for a while but then he said I can't be a free loader I need to do something so I started working making drugs, selling drugs, robbing, giving head to them, and killing. I made a deal with my ex so I could leave and I ended up owing him so much money I knew I didn't have so he kept a track of me until I paid it off. Then I ended up kidnapped and I was tortured, and men would come in and try to touch me and they would take naked pictures of me. I was in that for 2 months until they ended up selling me and Xayvion bought me and because I wanted to be free I owed him money as well and I wasn't cheap either. They started the bid off at $5 mil. Instead of me going to my mom I didn't and kept working for Xayvion until I could pay him off and when I was done I went home. I still didn't tell my mom and then I got back with your uncle and I started to almost love with him until he just said I needed to just live with him so then I moved in with him, I graduated, had a nice birthday party, got married and moved to New York. Before we moved there I ended up getting pregnant but I was a newly wed and I wasn't ready for a baby so I went to get an abortion"
Lauren: "Oh my goodness auntie you got a..."
Me: "Ssshhh!! Let me finish. I went to the place and they couldn't find the baby so I wasn't pregnant and I didn't get an abortion but 7 months later I'm having Jaidyn. And when we moved to New York I was getting beat up and abused but I allowed it to happen because it was my fault, I didn't pay off my debt so the person I owed money to wanted his money so bad he did bad things while we was out there. The abuse got worst and worst as time went by so I left and became the biggest, livest, sexiest stripper in all of New York. Thats stuff I Don't want you to go threw girl. I could've avoided that whole life by telling my mom from the beginning. Instead of me walking on the streets I should've went home and all this could've been avoided. You understand?"
Lauren: "Yes and I definitely don't want that in my life"
Me: "Good because even though it's good right now believe me it literally just got like this before everybody got here", she laughed and I walked out the kitchen and almost the whole house was by the door. I looked at 'Xavier to see is he heard the part about the abortion and the look on his face said he did.
Renee: "Alright Umm Jacoby come on. Y'all I got the kids y'all can come get them when y'all talk and clear everything out", she started getting everybody stuff together and they went upstairs to get Jabari and their stuff but me and 'Xavier was just staring at each other.
When they left Jaidyn gave us a hug and walked out with Renee and then all the guys left so it was just us two at the house.
Me: "Baby say something"
'Xavier: "Oh so now I'm baby? What in you head told you to even attempt to give one of my seeds up for an abortion and then I had no idea about it"
Me: "We were newly weds I didn't want a baby yet I just wanted you and us"
'Xavier: "Well guess what you got it. Come here", he reached out for my arm but I snatched it back and that wasn't smart because then he grabbed my arm and yanked me to him so I was looking at him and my chest was on his so I could feel his heartbeat. "So now you wanna snatch away from me. Alright I got something for that a**. I told you, you getting out of line but that's alright we gone fix this right now"
He started squeezing my arms and walked me to his office and we went down to the basement he had in their and he threw me in a cellar. He left and came back with a paddle in his hands. He opened the cellar put the paddle on the floor and took all my clothes off.
Me: "'Xavier this isn't your body. I was scared then I didn't know anything about a baby except that it's painful and having a baby is expensive. I wasn't ready"
'Xavier: "I don't care. That's an excuse a single mother give. B*tch you ain't single you married to a thug. I'm already loyal I wasn't finna leave you. I was gone be there for you all the way"
Me: "So now I'm a b*tch? You know what 'Xavier f*ck you and yo balls and if you so loyal and you would've been with me all the way then why did I have to set a girl on fire at my sons first birthday party? Yeah let's not forget about that ha get out my face", I tried to grab my clothes and walk off but he pulled my hair, sat down on the seat and bent me over smacking my butt with the paddle.
'Xavier: "You...gone...stop...thinking...you...running...things....when...you...don't", he said smacking my butt in between each word. "You...ain't...doing...sh*t...without me...you...understand...that... *smack *smack *smack
Me: "'Xavier stop", I tried to cover my butt and get off of him but he just held on tighter moving my hands smacking me harder.
'Xavier: "There you go thinking you run stuff *smack. Stay in yo place...you got that...stay in yo place...if you not asking me...you...ain't...doing...not a...d*mn thing...do you...understand"
Me: "Yes"
'Xavier: "Wrong...motha...f*cking...answer"
Me: "Okay yes sir", I had tears coming down my face.
'Xavier: "Wrong again...say yes daddy"
Me: "Yes daddy! Yes daddy! Yes daddy!"
'Xavier: "Good now come here", I got up and sat on his lap. "Baby I don't mind you being a boss and taking over stuff but you going to far. Lead behind me, I'm the head in this family don't ever forget that. Now give me kiss", he put his finger under my chin making me kiss him. I grabbed my clothes and walked back upstairs to the bathroom to change. I looked at my butt and you could see the marks it left behind and it was red. I'm black (but not that dark) why the h*ll is my booty red? I walked out the downstairs bathroom and when I went to the room 'Xavier was just in his boxers laying on the bed.
Me: "You need to put some clothes on and take a shower"
'Xavier: "Then come take a shower with me", he grabbed moths arm he was pulling and yanking on earlier and when he tried to pull it I snatched it back because it was hurting super bad.
Me: "Oww 'Xavier my arms hurt and I'm not taking no d*mn shower with you"
'Xavier: "Yeah you are", he took my clothes back off picked me up and took me to the shower. He turned the water on and made me stand against the wall while he sucked on my neck picking me up. I put my arms around his neck and started moaning. Then I slapped him and ran out the shower. I grabbed some clothes, went in my garage getting in my Suburban and I drove away from the house. I need to get away for a while and my booty still hurt.
