I should feel like I'm good enough.
I should feel like I am amazing and can do something without messing it up.
Or that I'm good enough for him.
But instead I feel like I'm not good enough.
Nothing I do will ever be good enough.
I should feel like I'm worth something.
Dear me,
Today in class he smiled at me, it wasn't a forced one, but one that meant something. But how would I know for sure? No one ever smiles at me, they know that I'm worthless. They know that I'm useless, and they know that I don't care about life anymore. There are old scars to prove it, and medical records of my visit to the hospital. Bank records of the money withdraws for the therapist I'm no longer seeing. But he smiled at me. So why do I feel like I'm not good enough? Does my mind know better than to get my hopes up, unlike my heart? Why do I feel like I don't want to love anyone? Mom must be disappointed in me for thinking so low of myself. But mom, I'm only stating the facts.
I should feel like I'm good enough.
I should feel like I am amazing and can do something without messing it up.
But instead I feel like I'm not good enough.
Nothing I do will ever be good enough.
I should feel like I'm worth something.
Its time I stop pretending that I am.
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Short StoryEl never thought as a kid playing with her Barbies that she'd become like this. El never thought that she'd have to write down her feelings to let them out. El definitely didn't expect them to get out for the whole world to see, especially when she...
