I've gotten some questions regarding this book. If you have any, please ask.
The main one is: Have you felt like this?
And my answer is: yes.
I won't lie, I've felt many of these emotions, if not all. There have been nights where I've cried because I was hurting so bad I didn't want to face the same feelings the next day. I wrote this book from my emotions, I took the ones someone gave me and did my best if I never felt it. You see, for me I was hurting so bad I didn't think about telling myself "Hey, tomorrow isn't today."
I've never attempted suicide or harmed myself in any way, and for those of you who have, I am sorry. There is no words I can say really because I feel as if it would be rude of me. So instead I'm going to say something different.
Here's to tomorrow. Although today was like the day before and the ones before that tomorrow is going to be different. This will pass, I will get better and tomorrow is not today. Here's to the moment I look back on this and realize that I can finally breathe. Here's to when I think back to when I stopped hurting and can't pin point it because it didn't suddenly stop. It did with time. Because with each laugh, each good moment and each smile I got better little by little. Although I did not see it as it was happening I let go all of the sorrow, hatred and restlessness. Here's to tomorrow, to when I let go; even just a little bit.
But the whole reason I wrote this book was because of one bad day I had in French. I believe someone said something negative to me, and instead of turning into a raging, crazy, hormonal teenager I wrote. I came home, decided that I was going to turn that feeling into a book. Just who knew it turned into a book this meaningful?
I love this book with all of my heart. And I am better. I can breathe.
And it is okay to not be okay. But get help, talk to someone even if you're embarrassed. Because chances are is that some feels the exact same way.
This will pass.
You will smile.
You will be able to breathe.
And you will live.
Here's to tomorrow.
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ContoEl never thought as a kid playing with her Barbies that she'd become like this. El never thought that she'd have to write down her feelings to let them out. El definitely didn't expect them to get out for the whole world to see, especially when she...
