Anything But Ordinary

Wait and See

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I try to be happy.
I force a smile on my face,
But it's beyond my ability
To stay in this place.
All that I am,
All that I've been through...
I thought it would stay the same,
I wanted all of it to...
But nothing goes as planned,
Behind the wall the smile will fade,
And you won't be there to take my hand.
I tried to make it work,
To not always fall apart,
Believe I was loved with all my quirks,
And know it wasn't a lie from the start.
But it was,
And it is,
It might always be.
And I'm forced to try again,
Forced to wait and see.
But I'm tired,
I'm scared,
I'm still heavily unprepared.
I can't go through it again,
When it's pure heartbreak in the end.
But what else do I do,
Besides get over you?
And my fear of losing
Everyone else I love and will love too?
So I'll try again to be happy...
This time I truly will.
I'll put a smile on my face, you'll see,
So bright it could surely kill.
You'll know what you've done
To that girl that was always broken.
You'll find she was the one,
And from her everything was stolen.
I'm not the same,
Nor will I ever be,
Nor are you and me.
You were the final straw,
My last goodbye,
Late night calls,
And heartbreaking lies.
I'm done looking for someone
To help pick up the pieces of me.
I'll do it alone,
And find who I'm supposed to be.
Then, I'll definitely be happy
Without you
Just wait and see...