BTS Imagines《ENG》

Care Enough

So~ this was a request from my close friend , Zarin. I hope you like it ❤.
P.S. Everyone can request.

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With lots of love ,
Shanu 😙

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It was one of those normal days of my life where I spend contemplating whether I am actually living my life the way I want or the way my parents wanted. Like honestly I am contented with everything in my life. My work , my income , my apartment , my collegues and all the simple things but I cannot say that I am necessarily happy with what was happening in my life. Of what actually my life was.

It was hard. It wasn't easy to get into the position I was in right now , rather it took me a lot of time and effort to. But evenso I always had that feeling at the back saying that all of this wasn't enough , that I could do much more than this. That I was a way better person than who I was showing I was.

I'd spend so much time arguing with myself about my satisfaction with my life , I'd always try to surpress these negative feelings and try to think about other things but sometimes it got really difficult. Like my feelings were really stubborn , they'd always win against me no matter what I did. I was weak against these thoughts... because sometimes I started to believe them , I wasn't confident at all , I had no actual self-esteem , I doubted myself a lot... and it gets really hard sometimes , so hard to the point I cry , to the point my head starts hurting.

You may think I was over-exaggerating , that this was nothing compared to the real problems people had out there , that I was just being overdramatic about everything... but I was not... I really was not... I just really needed someone to talk to... someone that would listen to me , someone who would comfort me... I needed him... I needed JungKook...

I stood up from the sofa in the living room of my apartment and went in to my shared-room with him.

JungKook was my boyfriend of nearly 2 years now. We shared an apartment but he would not be here most of the time due to his schedules , as he was an idol , but I understood. I respected his job , his dream , a lot so our relationship was really stable. We loved eachother a lot.

I loved him for various reasons and if I were to list them it would take forever but... the thing I admired most about him was that... he was happy... he was happy with what he was doing , his work , his status and just plain everything. He was proud of his job and himself. He was doing what he had always been dreaming of. He was so carefree... because he was really satisfied with his life... exactly what I was NOT.

I admired him yes... but sometimes I couldn't but feel envious of him. I had so many doubts whereas for him everything was clear... why couldn't I be like him ? Why couldn't I just... have made the right choices from the beginning ? Why did I have to mess up this badly ?

My life wasn't bad more like it was too good... too unrealistically good... I wanted to be carefree... I didn't want to live trying so hard to not mess up my life , thinking that the smallest mistake I did could ruin everything... I just wish I could have taken the right decisions from the get go...

I unplugged the charger end from my phone and dialed his number. I brought my phone to my ear and waited for his response.

" Hello ? Zarin ? "

His voice was so soothing... I missed him so much...

" Mmm. "

" What is it babe ? Anything's the matter ? "