Just Hold Me ~ Norminah

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(A/n: I'm that I'm in love with someone just because he spammed with with puppy dog pictures of Lauren Jauregui without me asking. He's so sweet anyways enjoyyy also get tissues.

Dinahs POV

"Dinah will you come here?" My mom asked. I ran down the stairs and my therapist was at the bottom. Why, I don't know?

"Hello Dinah. I have something for you." She said handing me an orange package. "Its from Normani, I'm sure you remember her?" She asked and I nodded slowly taking it.

"Well she wanted you to have it." She said and I nodded again.

"What is it?" I asked eyeing the package and raising it to my face.

"You'll have to find out for yourself but I advise you." She warned me as i nodded heading up the stairs. I closed my door sitting back on my bed grabbing some scissors and opening the package. What I pulled out was a leathery old journal. A journal? I raised my eyebrows in suspicion and opened the first page.

"Property of Normani Kordei Hamilton." I winced at her name and there was a letter attached to the first page.

"Dear Dinah, I wanted you to have my journal, I don't know why but I did. Someone exposed my anorexia with a letter. I dont who but if I find out who I will end that person with my own hands. Anyways theres things you dont know about me, or anyone else. I dont why I'm even telling you this, I mean you hate me. Anyways yeah..."

I opened the first page and winced.

"So theres this girl, her name is Dinah Jane Hansen. Anyways I love her, lots. She doesnt even like me. Sometimes were always staring at each other and she will roll her eyes and look away. She does that all the tome though so it doesnt hurt that much, I mean every time my teacher talks or hands out stuff she does it too. Her side profile is beautiful though. The way she writes her hair always falls down and covers some of her face which makes her look perfect. She also doodles, a lot. She is always doodling. I dont even think she is paying attention. She always makes these little complex drawing and I realize she is so much more complex than people actually think. We worked on a lab project last year and everyone in my class messed it up so she was bored. Our other partner, who I wont even mention, was sick, so it was just us two. Because spilling the liquid was dangerous one of the other groups did it on accident and she asked them "hey how did you guys spill it" anyways she scared the crap out of me because it was like fucking acid or whatever. She is funny. She is sweet, if she tries. Anyways I really hope she doesnt find out I like her. She barely even tolerates me as it is, I know. She hates me but I don't know why. I just want to impress her and see her smile and laugh. If she finds out though I will be the laughing stalk of the school for liking a girl. She can never find out."

I winced again reading it. I remember that I wanted to pour the acid on Wesley. Anyways I kinda got sent to the office, but our other partner, I think it was... Austin Mahone? I dont remember that well.

"Mom, didn't Dinah's cousin live with them for a while, in 8th grade?" I asked walking down the stairs. She nodded.

"Yeah Austin, why?"

"No reason I'm going to go to bed." I ran upstairs and showered before running into my pjs and plopping myself on my bed turning to the next page.

"He hit me..."

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"Miss Hansen will you please tell me the square root of 1681?" My teacher asked and I rolled my eyes looking up. Everyone was looking at me.