Just Hold Me ~ Norminah

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"I want to break up..." I said sadly. She chocked back her tears for a moment before I spoke.

"Theres just no point."

"Do you love me?" She questioned.

"Yes but-"

"Then I say there is a point, if we love each other Dinah... I know this will sound cheesy, but I say there is a point. Love will survive."

"People fall out of love Normani." I replied normally.

"If you fall out of love with me, then I shall let you go, but I will never stop loving you." She said letting go of my hands and moving to lay down in her bed. I sighed and sat there for a moment before taking off my clothes and laying with her. Her eyes were closed but she hugged me. I laid myself against her chest as we sat in comfortable silence. We were both naked, but it wasn't intimate. I opened my mouth to speak and she looked at me.

"You know whats the best?" I asked moving my hands up her chest.

"No what?" She asked me softly. I cupped her boob and touched her nipple watching it harden.

"Nipples." She snorted and laughed as I smiled.

"This is why I love you." She said kissing my forehead. I snuggled back into her chest as she held her arms around me.

"I love you too."

I spent the night at her house laid into her naked chest and occasionally kissing her. We watched a cheesy movie, which she found in one of the packed boxes, and she made me food, but we didn't put our clothes on. It was that night that I imagined our future. Dancing naked with each other, being in our presences, making jokes almost as bad as Camila's. Just being with each other. Thats what I wanted with her. Thats what I was scared to lose.

Two weeks passed. Graduation.

"How do i look?" Camila asked me for the millionth time as I wanted to zip the robe up to her face. 

"Like someone took a shit and put a bow on it, you look fine Mila." She frowned and zipped her robe sadly. I fixed her graduation hat and put the tassel on the right side. I looked in the mirror to see my gown go all the way down to my ankles. Luckily for me there was no one between Hansen or Hamilton so I got to sit next to my girlfriend. We made our way to the arena and all got in line as Camila walked to the front. Shockingly her and Lauren were the fucking valedictorians. Very shockingly.

"I'm excited." Normani said in her heels. I frowned. She was leaving tonight.

"I'm not." I frowned and she kissed me. I rested my forehead on hers as she admired my dress. It was sparkly blue and knee length. Hers was purple with flowers on it. I pulled away as they started letting us go and we sat together. She held my hand the whole time. I tuned out Lauren until she started.

".... and Dinah, Luke, Zayn, Veronica-"

"SHUT UP!" Someone yelled and we all laughed.

"You all owe me twenty bucks." She said and Camila finished the speech. I cursed under my breath and Normani laughed at me.  The bet had been that Lauren wouldn't pass the 8th or 9th or 12th grade which she did. They started calling our names as they went on the stage and when I heard Normani's I looked up to see where the scream was coming from. As I looked up I saw Normani's.... Father. He was standing up clapping with her mom too. I saw my parents screaming. I walked up next and got my diploma. I wouldn't tell her. That would destroy her.

We sat back down and moved the tassel from right to left. Normani nudged me and we were dismissed. She kissed me as I jumped up engulfing her in a koala hug. We took a picture and she posted it in Instagram with the caption... "Love of my life, I will miss each and everyone of you 💖..." The school was hosting a party for us which the whole school was attending. Everyone knew about Normani's record deal so I barley got her for the night. I did dance with Camren though.

"Canzi would you like punch?!" Lauren yelled over the noise. She nodded and I yelled for her to bring me one too. I danced Camila around as Normani made her reappearance. She practically shoved Camila out of the way. We slow danced and she kissed me.

"Dinah... We should go if you want to go to your parents." She said sweetly. I nodded as she said goodbye to Ally, Camila, and Lauren. I said bye to them too and walked with her. We walked out of the school and I stopped at the car. She tried to open it before walking to my side.

"Will you open the fucking car?" She asked impatiently as I pulled her into me. I kissed her tenderly as I cried. She backed away and cupped my cheek, but not to be sweet. She wiped my tear and frowned.

"D baby please dont cry." She said and unlocked the car. She helped me into it before going to the drivers side. She locked us in and turned on the radio without turning on the car. "Dinah I fucking love you. I would fucking live for you baby. I would live a million lives for you, for us. You mean everything to me. If you need me I will walk to UW, I will crawl for you. I will be there Dinah. I dont care what is happening I dont care where I am. I will ALWAYS be there. Do you hear me Dinah Jane Milika Ilaisaane Hansen Amasio, I will be there. Nothing will separate and were gonna get married and have a daughter named Hayley and fly around the world. We'll dance naked around our house and sing Beyoncé songs all day, and like you say one day I'll tour with her. Dinah Jane I will do everything for you. I will win Grammys and sail and fly for you, I'll do whatever you want, so if you dont want me to go, I wont. Just say the words." She said quietly. She was going to be with Joel Adams on her first tour since they were both new artists. Joel was a singer who sang the song "Please Dont Go" which was an amazing song. She was also going with CFM. I was excited. I wanted everything for her too, so I say no.

"Why Hayley?" I laughed and so did she. I knew she was crying as our foreheads rested together.

"I love you Dinah and that cant even express it." She said sadly.

"I love you too. I appreciate you Normani. I love you..." I said as we drove to my parents. My family was in town and then we drove her to the airport. I stood there as she checked herself in for her ticket and suitcase. She grabbed it from the lady and turned towards me.

"Dinah...-"

"Dont, I um..." My voice cracked as my tears freely flowed. "I love you."

"I love you too." She said as we hugged. We were both crying as we kissed and hugged again. My mom was there waiting inside for me, as I felt my heart breaking. I almost couldn't see her I was crying so hard.

"I have to go." She said sadly. I nodded and she spoke words that broke my heart unevenly into a million pieces. "Goodbye." She turned around walking away before I could croak out the words.

"Goodbye Normani Kordei." I said biting my lip. My mom put her hand on my shoulder and Engulfed me in a hug as my chest started heaving and broken sobs escaped my lips. She got me out shushing me. I cried that whole night listening to I Wont Give Up on repeat. I threw a few more songs in there occasionally but still cried. It was our song.

Our song.

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(A/n: I legit cried... And I wrote this! I'm a baby

Double update gn

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