Ehsaas....a feeling

Feelings Unsaid

"A feeling is no longer the same when it comes the second time, It dies." He said taking a deep breath and sipping his coffee.

"Trust your feelings. I can’t promise that you’ll never get hurt again, but I can promise you the risk is worth it." I said taking in a big gulp of my coffee.

Right now we were standing in the balcony of our room, admiring the stars and the silent night. It's been a week since I had returned and I can say that things have changed between us a bit.

We both have started spending more time with each other. We have made a daily routine of telling each other what happened today!! We have came to know many things about us, but yeah most of them just not suits well with me.

But like we say two imperfect people makes a perfect couple.

It has become a habit for me to walk him to the door when he leaves for office and to be the first person to open the gate when he comes back from office. We often wait for one another when we sit at the dining table.

The best and the most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart.

"But you know Seher, some feelings cause us pain because they remain."

"Want to talk about it?" I asked gently.

He smirked at me. "I appreciate the offer, but I'm a guy. We don't do that." My nose scrunched up in confusion. "We don't discuss our feelings."

"That's a relief; I don't want to talk about it either." And we both laughed.

"I've never minded it," he went on. "Being lost, that is. I had always thought one could not truly be lost if one knew one's own heart. But I fear I may be lost without knowing yours." He said looking straight at me.

"You won't" I replied.

"I always wanted to be this close to you. I don't know what you did to me these days, but I love to see you blush and I like even more when the reason is Me behind your blush" he said making me smile and blush.

He gently caressed my left cheek with his fingers.

"I'm going crazy about you!!" He said as he pulled me closer to him.

Did I told you that I'm "Already crazy about you??"

"I know I'm not going to be in your head all the time. But once you know me, I'll be forever in your heart." He said kissing my hand and I took a deep breath.

Did I told you that "You're already in my heart??"

Is it really possible to tell someone else what one feels?

"Do you know when I do this...." He rested a hand on my hip, and my whole body tensed up. His hand rested on the small of my back. My skin burned where he touched me, and the places that were untouched longed for that heat.

"See?" he said. "Well, I guess you can’t. But when I touch you, your body temperature rises. The color of your cheeks deepen, it burns more intensely. "Why? Why, Seher?” He used that hand on me to pull me more closer. “Why do you react that way if I don’t mean anything to you?” There was a desperation in his voice, and it was legitimate.

I looked up and saw him in his eyes. Just ask how I'm feeling, I want to say. Just ask and I may tell you that You mean the world to me.

"I wish, you let me, kiss you, Seher," he said. "Because I can even beg just for one from you. Under all this." He flailed an arm toward the stars. I buried my face in his chest, shyness taking it's best control over me. He didn't wait a second also, to wrap me in his arms.

This was the perfect moment. Me buried in his chest while him buried in the crook of my neck, both of us breathing each other's scent. After sometime he made me look up by pulling my chin up. I don't know who leaned first, but all I could feel was his breath fanning my face.

I closed my eyes as he leaned more closer. Every inch of my body was craving for his touch. The way he wrapped both of his arms around my waist made the hair on the back of my neck stood straight, as my body burned with desire.

I don't know if we're ready for it or not, but our soul and body were reacting totally different that our minds. He slowly kissed my nose, and leaned down. I could feel his heart beat racing with me.

His lips were about to touch mine when his phone rang, making me jump back but thanks to him that his grip was strong or else I would have fell down hard on the floor. He groaned.

"You alright?" He asked. I nodded not trust my voice. My heart was now jumping so high like it was on a trampoline.

He clenched his fist as he went inside the room and muttered something under his breath as he picked up his cell.

"What??" He barked, clearly annoyed with the unexpected phone call.

After calming down myself and trusting myself I went inside. He was now pacing around the room, running his hands through his hair making it more messy than before.

I love you. I hate you. I like you. I hate you. I love you. I think you’re wonderful. I want to be with you. I don’t want to be with you. I would never date you. I hate you. I love you. I think the madness started the moment I met you and you knocked me out. Did you have a disease or something?

He ended the call and sighed. "Have an early meeting tomorrow" he whined. I laughed.

"You should sleep, it's already late" I said and he nodded.

"Good Night"

"Good Night"

Ehsaas, It's often just not enough to be with someone. You don't need to touch them. Not even talk. A feeling passes between you both and whispers lightly that You're not Alone.