Dark Angel // Alex Gaskarth

Chapter Twenty Five: I Hate How Much I Love You

Song: Kissing In Cars by Pierce the Veil

Title Credit: Hate That I Love You- Rihanna ft Ne-Yo

Angel~

My mouth hung open, completely speechless as I stared at Alex in shock. Had I heard him right? Did he really just ask me to become his wife? We're only eighteen, aren't we a little too young to get married? I know, marrying someone with a citizenship is the only way that I'll be able to go back to America, legally anyways. But is this really the right choice? Is Alex really willing to make me his wife, just so I can go back home?

"A-Are you sure, Alex?" I asked, my hand still placed over my mouth, for I was still in shock.

Alex nodded. He opened the small velvet box up, revealing a shiny ring sitting inside. He smiled sheepishly at me. "I know, it's small... and it isn't something that a lot of people want to show off.. but it's the only thing I could really afford. Rings are really fucking expensive." He apologized, a nervous chuckle left his mouth as he scratched the back of his neck. "But, I promise to get you a bigger and better one once you know, once I get a job that pays decently." He nervously added.

I sighed, my fingers running through my hair. Was this the right choice? I know it's really the only option we have. My father wont even spend any money on buying me some damn milk, there's no way that he's going to pay money to get my American citizenship. Even if we do manage to convince him, there's no guarantee that the documents will go through. I guess, this really is the only way to return to Baltimore.

I miss my mother, I miss my friends, I miss the atmosphere. Even if the people are kinder here in Sahuayo, there is no place like Baltimore. I grew up there, I spoke my first words there, I celebrated my first birthday there, Oscar is buried there and Baltimore is where I found my first love. You know how people sometimes say 'There is no place like home?' Well, they're right. There is no place like Baltimore, Maryland... and I'd do anything to go back there. Even if it means that I hVe to marry at eighteen.

"Fine," I answered, my voice barely rising above a quiet whisper. "I mean... Yes." The corners of my mouth twitched up, forming a small smile on my lips as I held my hand out. Shocked with my response, Alex slowly nodded. He pulled the ring out of the case and gently slid it on my ring finger. I stared at the ring in awe.

This is it. This could either go two different ways; a happy marriage with Alex from here on out, or the worst mistake I have ever made in my entire life.

Still, it can't be all that bad, right? I am marrying someone I love. It's not some guy my parents hooked me up with, or a Vegas marriage that I'll regret a week afterwards. No, this is me, marrying someone I love, shouldn't I be happy? Well, I am happy, but I just never thought that I'd get married at the age of eighteen. Especially, not with someone like Alex. I'm not saying that Alex is a bad person, he isn't. I just always thought I'd end up with some drunk. Thankfully, I got a great guy who seems like he'd sacrafice a lot of things for me. What more can someone ask for?

"I really do love you, Angel," Alex murmured, his hand gently caressing my cheek. "I promise, everything is going to be okay. I'll try to be the best husband that I can be. I know you probably didn't want to get married until like.. thirty or something, but I promise, we are going to make the best of this situation, and everything is going to be alright. I just... I need you to trust me on this, Angel. Do you trust me?" He asked, his eyes looking directly into mine.

Without any hesitation, I nodded in response. "Yes, of course I do. If I didn't, I probably wouldn't have said 'yes'." I answered, truthfully. To be completely honest, if I didn't trust Alex, I probably would have never gone out with him in the first place. I trust Alex as much as I trust my own mother, and I am certain that we will make the best of of this situation. We just have to try. This might sound very cheesy, but as long as I have Alex, everything is going to be fine. I am sure of it.