Dark Angel // Alex Gaskarth

Chapter Thirty: Eat Your Cancer

Chapter Thirty: Eat Your Cancer
Song & Title Credit: Heart Shaped Box by Nirvana

This is the last chapter guys.

Alex~

"Where is she?" I asked Zack over the phone. I was sitting on Jack's couch, my finger nails dug into the palms of my hand as I waited desperately for Zack's answer.

"She's at the cemetery. I just picked her up and we're on our way there." He answered. I sighed, relieved that she wasn't hurt or in danger. Angel thinks I don't know what she's going through. She thinks that I don't know what she's feeling now. Sure, I don't know the pain she must feel after losing her mom, but I do know how it is to lose someone you love and care about. I just wish she would talk to me instead of just running away.

"It's going to be alright, dude." Jack said beside me. I sighed, my elbows pressed against my thighs as I buried my head in my hands. I should have gone after her, but I couldn't. Angel's never acted this way before and I wish I could just take all her pain away. I wish we would have arrived sooner. Maybe then, we could have saved her mother. I just- I can't believe she took her own life. Did she not think of Angel when she downed those pills? Did her daughter's feelings ever even cross her mind when she drank that entire bottle of Jack?

To make matters worse, the four of us are going on tour soon. We released our first album last year, The Party Scene, and got signed to Emerald Moon Records a while ago. They managed to arrange a small tour with some local bands and I'm really looking forward to it. But I don't think leaving Angel at her worst time is a smart thing to do. I would hate if she fell into her old habits, or if she took up new and dangerous ones.

Even worse, I don't know what I'd do if she followed in her mother's footsteps and took her own life.

No, Angel would never do that. She's smart enough to know that people are here for her and we all care about her. She isn't alone and I want to make sure she knows that.

"They're here." Rian announced, looking through the window. I quickly jumped up from the couch and hurried outside. As soon as Angel stepped out of Zack's van, I wrapped my around around her small torso and enveloped her in the tightest hug imaginable.

"I love you." I whispered into her hair. Angel burst out sobbing, her thin arms slowly wrapped around my waist.

"I'm sorry." She cried. "I love you, too."

Hearing her say those four words instantly brought relief to me. Ever since we signed those papers, I had a feeling that Angel would stop loving me. That as soon as we get back to America, she'd file for a divorce. If the sixteen year old me could see how things are now, he'd laugh and call me an idiot for marrying so young. I don't care, though. I don't care what anyone says about our relationship. I love Angel more than anyone in this world and that's all that matters. I don't know what I'd do with out her.

Angel~

I pulled away from Alex's tight hold and brought my lips to his. On the way here, I realized something- There still is meaning to my life. Sure, I don't have much to show for the nineteen years I've been alive, but that's why I have another fifty years to make something of myself. I know exactly what I want to do with myself. I know that I have people that love and care about me.

"I'm sorry," I whispered, Alex's forehead gently pressed against mine. "I promise, I'll get better." I will. Now that I know what I want to do with myself, I'll enter college and get my bachelor's degree in teaching. Then, I'll look for a teaching job somewhere. I just- I don't want to do nothing with my life.

Even then, I know that I have the love and support I need from Alex, Jack, Rian and Zack. They're really the only friends I have, but I'm okay with that. As long as I have them, I think everything will be alright.

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I have the strong urge to do a sequel for this story... What do you guys think? And if I do make a sequel, what do you guys want to see happen? I'm undecided for a sequel for now, but if you want to see more of Angel and All Time Low, I have a story called Red Lips & Brown Eyes where they're featured. Okay, so this is the end of book 1 in the Dark Angel series. ^_^ Thank you guys for putting up with my slow updates, lack of writing skills and whack characters. ~Mae