Why Try

Chapter 21

Justin's P.O.V
I need her. I feel lost and empty. Why did I throw her out? I'm so stupid. I've locked myself in my bedroom to hide away from the outside world. The day after I threw her out of my house I went to her apartment but she wasn't there and I asked Scooter where she is and he said she's gone to Boca. I made her go there, I made her upset, I made her feel like shit and I'm an asshole for that. I have never felt so depressed in my life, I just want her here with me but I can't get hold of her. I've called, text, I even tweeted her asking her to answer my calls but she hasn't responded. I miss her more than anythi-. I was cut off by a knock at the door. I rolled my eyes, here we go again. It's either Scooter, my mom or a friend trying to get me out but it's not gonna work. "Justin? I-its me, Aribella. Your mom told me that you're not in a good way right now. Please come out or at least let me in, I want to talk to you...please". I just stared at the door, she's here? My mom told her and she's come all this way to be with me? She's here!. I walked over to the door and lent forward. "Only you..no one else?"
"No one else I promise".
I took in a deep breath and unlocked my door and opened it a little bit and stepped back. Ari walked in and shut the door after her "lock it please" she turned and gave me a funny look but locked the door anyway. She walked over to me and engulfed me in a hug. As soon as I came in contact with her tears raced down my cheeks. She rubbed my back and let out a quiet "shh". I sobbed for what seemed like ages.

We sat down on the bed and Ari reached into her bag and got me a tissue "thankyou"
"Justin it breaks my heart to see you like this. What's up? Tell me"
I let out a small breath, "I'm depressed that's why I've been off with you lately and I've been paranoid. You don't understand how bad I feel knowing I'm the reason you left. That night, I broke your heart, I treated you like shit all because I was too scared to tell you that I'm depressed" I quickly wiped a tear that fell down my cheek.
"I wish you would've told me sooner. I could've helped you"
"I know I'm sorry"
"Please don't apologise".
We sat on our bed and talked about anything and everything and it's taken my mind about my problems.
"Do you think you could go out of your room now?" I took in a deep breath and nodded. We got up from the bed and I unlocked the door and opened it.
"Oh my baby" my mom said and hugged me
"Are you okay?"
"Yes mom, I'm sorry for worrying you" "don't apologise".
"Erm I should be getting off now, Justin I'll come and see you tomorr-" "NO!..I mean no. Can you stay the night please?" She looked down at her shoes but nodded her head "yeah". I hope I get my life back on track, I want to make us work.