Why Try

Chapter 24

Justin's P.O.V
Today I'm starting therapy and I'm so nervous. Since the other day when I had a breakdown, things have gotten a little better for me. I didn't go out but I just relaxed and I had my girl to support me. I have watched some movies, played with T, he knows so many tricks now. Ari has been great, she has been patient with me and she lets me do things that makes me comfortable. I truly love her so much. Yesterday I posted on Instagram explaining why I haven't been online recently and why I haven't been out. I have read some comments and they are so sweet and caring, they understand me.
I have told Ari that she doesn't need to come today, I want to do this by myself. I'm currently on my way to my therapist session and I can't stop thinking about what I'm gonna be asked or how I'm gonna react...am I gonna cry? Am I gonna get mad at myself? I just don't know. I pulled into the parking lot, luckily this one is private. I got out of my car and made my way to the reception desk.
When I got to the desk there was a woman sat there on the computer, she noticed me and smiled.
"How can I help you sir?"
"I have an appointment with Bobby." She nodded and typed something on her computer.
"Yes, Bobby is just down the hall, to the left and it's the third door on the left" "thankyou". She was nice, she didn't freak out when I walked in. She treated me like I was a normal person. I knocked on the door and waited.
"Come in" I heard Bobby say.
"Hello Mr.Bieber"
"please call me Justin, nice to meet you" we sat down
"so tell me, how are you Justin?"
"Well, since the other day when my girlfriend called you, I feel like I have got a little better. I relaxed more and didn't stress about my busy lifestyle I was just Justin. Today is my first day out in public in a while and I know I should've gone out before but I just couldn't face it, my body didn't have the energy"
I'm starting to feel so much better now I'm talking to someone.
"And how do you feel now you're out of the house?"
"A lot better".
"Your girlfriend told me about you in the bathroom. Tell me about it, from your point of view", I nodded and took a deep breath in.
"A few weeks before I just began to feel so down, I felt like I wasn't good enough like I didn't belong in certain places and I started to talk to my girlfriend like an idiot and my attitude with everyone changed because I felt horrible. Me and aribella broke up and she went back home to her moms house in Boca. That hit me hard when I found out and I thought she had left me for good like I know we broke up but I didn't think she would leave LA so when she did it hit me hard. I felt horrible because I made her leave so I isolated myself away from everyone because I just wanted her and I wanted to know if she was okay." I didn't realise I was crying until I saw a tear hit me leg.
"Justin you need to realise that your emotions were everywhere and you wasn't yourself. You only acted like that because you felt like it was the right thing to do. You and your girlfriend are back together and but the sounds of it she's here to support you one hundred percent" I nodded in agreement.
Me and Bobby have been talking for about an hour and a half now and I have laughed and cried. He is amazing at his job.
"So Justin if you come back next week on Wednesday we will see how you've been getting on" I shook his hand, thanked him and then left. Now time to go home and cuddle with my girl.

Aribella's P.O.V
Oh my god Justin is coming home soon and I have something to tell him. I don't know how he's going to react but I hope he will take the news as good news. I don't really want to tell him though because he's been under so my pressure and stuff but I have to tell him. Holy fuck I'm shaking. Please take this news well...