Why Try

Chapter 37

My life recently has been a little weird without Justin but I have made so many memories with the people I love and they mean so much to me. Tiana and Shawn are now official and cute, im so happy for them
Recently I have released new single called "Thinking Bout You" it's a sweet song I wrote late last year but I've only just been able to put it out because of having wolf, taking care of him and all so I've been busy. I am definitely releasing new songs soon and I'm so excited. Wolf is doing great, he is laughing now and learning more about the world. Hes now seven months old and already cheeky, cute. Wolf is all me, being a single parent is hard but I'm getting though it, Justin hasn't even been to see him and I'm over it, I'm done texting him telling him to come over and getting no reply so fuck him.

I'm currently in the studio, Tiana is looking after Wolf whilst I'm here finishing my little Christmas EP. Every Christmas I release some music for my fans, just something for them to enjoy in the holidays.
"And I told you all I wanted was forever with my boo
After six days in your arms, I got a tattoo on my heart
Cause I'm your moonlight, you're my star and nothing's shining more than you, boy" I sang into the microphone. This song is my favourite, it's not about Justin, it was meant to be for Tiana but I liked it so I kept it. I looked up at Scooter whilst taking off my head phones and stepping out of the booth.
"That was really good. So when are you releasing this EP?"
"Erm, as soon as possible really. I want them to enjoy it during this time of year" he nodded his head and wrote something down on his piece of paper.
"So that song is done now?"
"Yeah the EP is done" I said with a big smile on my face, I hope everyone likes it.
"Okay I'll call you tonight with details about the release date. You can go home now". I hugged him and said goodbye, I'm so excited to go home to my boys.

I opened the front door to our house and I all I could hear was laughter, children's laughter. I know who's laugh that is, slipping off my black and white old skool vans and putting my bag down by the door I ran into the living room.
"Jazzy!!!" I picked her up and gave her a big bear hug, I've missed her so much. "Hey baby, what are you doing here?" "Visiting, I'm staying for a week" "no way, where's Jaxon?"
"He's upstairs sleeping, so is Wolf"
I love it when Jazzy and Jaxon surprise us with visits, we don't get to see them that often with them living in Canada so when they visit it means the world to Me.
"I'm sorry, I didnt know he was coming, he told me it was surprise that the kids were here. I'll leave you guys to it" Tiana said to me with a worried expression
"It's okay, he's finally come to see his son" I said not taking my eyes off Justin, I love being a bitch.
"Don't start, I've been busy"
"Too bust to see your son? Ha. How long have you got Jaz and Jax for?"
"Three days".
"Okay when they have gone back or Canada you can see Wolf for a bit, I don't want any excuses". Justin nodded his head as Jaxon ran up to him.
"Look I know we aren't together anymore but shall we go and get some dinner? I've missed the kids and I think it would be nice".
"Sure, I'd like that".
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It's currently half six in the evening and me, Justin and the children are at the restaurant waiting for everyone else.
"I missed you Aribella, I love you" jaxon said to me, he melts my heart what a cute.
"Aw I missed you too honey and I love you" I kissed the top of his head and he just giggled.
Getting in the restaurant was a joke. The paparazzi don't give two shits that we have a baby and jazzy and jaxon with us, they still shout questions at us and flash their cameras in our faces. I hate it because it scares the kids and it's not fair on them, we just want to have a family night out.
"Heyy" I looked up to see Tiana, Shawn, Lauren, Ethan, Madison and Hailey.
"Hey guys" I stood up and gave everyone a hug, they said hello to everyone and we sat down.
"where's Kenny?" I asked, I haven't seen her in so long and I miss her.
"She said she's sorry she couldn't make it, she's working" I nodded and picked up a menu.
"What is everyone having?" I asked, I really don't know what to have.
"I'm having steak" Justin said to me as he bent down to pick up Wolf's blanket that fallen onto the floor.

The night has been so good so far, it's been nice and chilled. No one has come up and interrupted us we have just had a laugh with eachother. I'm currently on my second glass of wine, I don't drink like I used to I think having Wolf has just changed me. Hailey is slurring her words and it's so funny and she's trying to Snapchat all of us but it's just not going to plan. I literally can't stop laughing, we all can't.

"Aribella can we go home now? I'm tired." Jazzy said tapping me on my arm.
"Yes honey we are leaving now" Jaxon is asleep on my lap and has been for the past half an hour, he looks just like Justin when he sleeps it's so cute. We said goodbye to everyone and headed home, god I'm tired, get me home.
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I was woken up to my phone buzzing on my night stand. It's 2:30am what is Madison doing calling me at this time?. I answered the phone and all I could hear was muffling sounds on the other end.
"Hello? Madison?" I said down the phone.
"F-finally. You answered" I got up out of bed and went into the bathroom so I didn't wake Wolf up.
"Why are you calling at this time? What's up?"
"I think me and jack are over"
"W-what?"
"Come to your door, I'm outside"
I crept out of the bathroom and walked down stairs to let Madison in.
I switched the light on and opened the door. She threw her arms around me and sobbed.
"Sshhh it's okay" I rubbed her back.
I took her into the kitchen so she could get a warm drink.
"What happened?"
"Well, he went out earlier and some how he ex Emily was at the same place and I have seen pictures of them together and they looked really close so when I got back I asked him about it and he kept apologising to me. I then got mad and the argument just blew up and then I was like 'fuck off, I'm done with you' now I'm just scared he thinks we are completely over" she began to cry, I feel so bad for her.
"You can stay here as long as you like, i have enough room. In the guest room that you will be in there is a pair of pyjamas in the draw and a tv. There's also a spare charger if you need it, it's the one at the end of the hall on the right. "Thankyou so much for this, love you" she gave me a hug and then headed for bed.

I got into bed and cuddled with Wolf and not long after I drifted off into a deep sleep.