Why Try

Chapter 22

I have been up most of the night. My mind is constantly replaying what justin said to me hours ago "I'm depressed". How did I not realise earlier? How did I let him get so bad that he locked himself away, isolating himself away from his family and people that mean a lot to him. We all care about Justin, we want him to be well and happy. We all just want what's best for him because we all know he's had a hard life like when he was younger him and his mom were poor, they didn't have the luxuries we have today, they got by with little money and little food. His dad wasn't around to support him and his mother but Pattie did a damn good job raising Justin all by herself. I feel for Justin, I want to make him happy again, I want to be the one who makes him smile all day everyday. I want to be the one who one day he says to me "thankyou for never giving up on me" because I really do love Justin, I have never told him that yet. I know we have dated but the words "I love you" have never been said to each other.
"You awake?" Justin said next to me making me jump.
"Yeah, have been for ages"
"why didn't you wake me up? How long have you been awake for?"
"I didn't want to wake you up, you look peaceful and about two hours". He turned over to face me placing his hand on my waist and I adjusted my pillows so I could some what sit up.
"I'm so happy you're back, I'm sorry I made you leave"
"Justin, you didn't make me leave. I left because I needed to clear my head and I missed my family. Please don't think you made me leave, that's not true. Yes you did hurt my feelings but now I know the reason why and I want to help you get better." He smiled and kissed my lips. "I'm sorry for calling you an asshole, that must of hurt" he chuckled "it's okay baby". I've missed being called that.
"I'm sorry for grabbing your arm and throwing you out. I'm truly sorry about that, I shouldn't of done that to you." "Don't worry about it, honestly" I moved closer to Justin and put my head on his chest. "I love you" I said loud enough for him to hear what I said.
"What?" He said moving away from me a little bit so he could see my face.
"I said I love you" his face was a little shocked and my heart began to race. What have I don- "I love you too" I let out a giggle
"you serious?"
"Yeah, I've wanted to tell you for ages but I didn't want you to be like 'oh thanks but I don't feel the same way". I playfully hit his chest "I would never". We giggled together for a little bit and then we shared a kiss. Let's just say the kiss got a little heated and one thing lead to another.
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It's currently 11am and I'm getting ready because I'm going to see if Justin wants to come out with me today because I know he hasn't been out since all of this has happened. If he doesn't want to go out that's fine but I hope he does. I'm planning on taking him to a pet store to adopt a dog, I think that will cheer him up a little it. "Where are you going?" I heard Justin asked me whilst I was getting a bottle of water out the fridge. "I was wondering if you want to come out today? If you don't it's okay, I understand" he looked down and shook him head. "Thankyou babe but maybe another time, I'm not ready yet" I nodded my head and gave him a kiss.
"I won't be long" I walked out of the house and got into my car, making my way to the pet store.
-At the Pet Store-
I have fallen in love with a Beagle-Chihuahua mix puppy. He is adorable, Justin will love him. His name is Toulouse, how cute. I have brought him a blue collar, dog bowls, treats, harness, food and nice big bed. I love him.
I signed the papers and put him in the front seat of my car so he can see me. The drive home was quick and I can't wait to see Justin's face.
I pulled up on the drive and hopped out with Toulouse by my side and opened the front door and shouted Justin's name.
"In here" I heard him shout from the living room.
"Close your eyes and hold out your hands" "Why?"
"Do it Bieber!". I walked in and he had his arms extended and his eyes shut. I placed Toulouse in his hands
"Open".
Justin opened his eyes and a smile spread across his face.
"baby! Is this our dog?" I nodded my head "yeah, I thought he would cheer you up. His name is Toulouse. He is a Beagle-Chihuahua mix". Justin was smothering him in kisses so I don't think he is listening. I hope Toulouse cheers him up. My boys.