𝙤𝙗𝙨𝙘𝙪𝙧𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙤𝙛 𝙘𝙤𝙤𝙡 { 𝙨𝙖𝙣𝙟𝙞 | 1 }

Chapter 36:I'm the one to blame

Third pov
It hurt going to school. Victoria didn't want to go today. Not after last nights events. One thing was clear felt clear to her though. Victoria knew that if she tried to talk to her group, Sanji would be there. She didn't want to be in his presence, as she felt either that she's contaminate it, or she'd say something that'd hurt him.

Victoria was confused about her own emotions. She felt sad, upset, confused, lonely & a little bit angry. She knew for a fact that if she let it out onto other people, she'd say something wrong, and would blame them for whats happened.

'Its all my fault...really, its his way if saying that I'm not good enough for him. What am I going to do? I need to get away from everyone else. I don't want to make it awkward for everyone else...'

"I think its best if I go on my own..." I whispered to myself.

Victoria arrived to her first class, Music class. She had brought her new violin along today. Marco had given in, and went & bought it for her anyway. She absolutely loved it. The sound it produced was beautiful, and it had that new violin smell, a smell that Victoria lives for.

"Yohohohohoho~! Good morning, Miss Chevallier! I see that you have a mew violin!" Me Brook greets.
She smiled weakly. "Yeah! Um..my brother bought it for me."
"Well he sounds like a nice brother. May I?"
Victoria handed the violin to Mr Brook. "Yeah, sure. Go ahead."

Victoria watched as Mr Brook started to play a couple of notes. She was amazed. The sounds were quite literally music to her ears. Mr Brook gave her violin back, and had a great smile on his bony face.

"Absolutely marvelous, Victoria."
She bowed with respect. "Thank you, sir."

The classroom door opened, and from the corner of her eye, she knew that it was Sanji. For a moment, it felt like her ribs had just violently squeezed her heart.

'Damn it, everything was going swell!'

Quickly, Victoria went to the other side of the room, and got out a violin study book. She set her violin back into its case, right next to her. She tried hard to make it look like that she hadn't noticed him.

'Just don't make eye contact. It'll only make everything worse.'

"Aaaalright class!" Mr Brook sings out. "So exams are coming up, as you all know! That means that its time to buckle down, and start studying."
¾ of the class groaned.
"I know, I know..but! If you wanna get a top notch grade, then its a good idea to put effort into your grades by studying. Now, as I'm aware, there are some people in here that don't exactly know how to study properly yet. And that is fine! A lot of people struggle with it. So if any of you have questions, or would like to practice with their instruments, please come talk to me."

Victoria decided to take the chance of being alone. She stood up & grabbed her things that she needs. She asked Me Brook if she could study in the drama space (since everyone in the drama class has gone on a field trip). Easily, Mr Brook agreed. Victoria rushed off before anyone else could say anything.

Sanji pov
I watched as Victoria scampered off to study in the drama space. My heart clenched even harder, and tears were threatening to spill.

'I need her, I want her.'

I quickly made up a lame excuse about going to the bathrooms, then went towards the drama space. I snuck in, and hid in the upstairs area. Inside, Victoria was facing towards the stage, her violin at ready.

"1, 2, 3, and-"

'It sounds so..sad.'

Then suddenly, I heard a wrong note, and a loud growl coming from Victoria. She stomped her foot in the ground.

"Fucking hell, I messed up again!"

Victoria out her violin down on the near by table, and sighed. She ran her hands through shining blonde hair. She hugged herself, and shut her eyes, and started to cry.

"No..no..no..I'm crying again." She grunts, then pauses.

'Victoria, I really want to be with you..but I'm trying to keep you safe. If I told you what's happening, Niji would kill you.'

Suddenly, a loud thwack sounded in the room, along with a thud then Victoria swearing. Victoria had flipped the table, and seemed like she had injured herself. She held her hands to her lips.

"I fucked up..I fucked up bad. All of this..is my fault." Victoria whimpers before she starts to cry harder. "I'm not good enough..I knew it."

My heart lurched even more, and I almost wanted to run in & hug her.

'But..I know that my presence around Victoria unsettles her, and I don't want to make anything worse for her.'

I didn't bother to wipe the tears. I just simply sat, and watched, knowing that I'm powerless & that I can't do anything to comfort her, or love her.