15|| just another night
i sat with my legs crossed on alexis' bed, a pen in my hand. i was working on a worksheet for earth science and so far i knew most of the answers.
alexis lays beside me and waits for me to finish up the question i'm working on so she could copy like she's been doing since i started. she wasn't doing so well and begged for me to help her. i told her i would, but what i had in mind was tutoring. turns out she had a different idea.
"i can't wait to see the look on ms.neil's face when she hands this back to me." she says, a smirk on her face as she glances back and forth from my paper to hers, hand scribbling the sentences down.
i said nothing in response, just nodded and thought about something i couldn't shake from my mind. shawn.
as if on cue my phone buzzed by my foot. alexis grabs it before i can and the screen lights up reflecting on her face. she reads the message and looks up at me, her eyes rolling while shoving my phone at me.
"seriously?" she whines. i look at her completely puzzled but curious as to what it was she saw.
shawn: hey are u busy?
as hard as i tried to fight it my lips curved into a smile. this caused a groan to come from the irrigated girl now sitting up in front of me.
i look up at her, my eyes narrowing. "what's your problem with shawn?"
"scar, i know this is my fault for constantly telling you to lighten up and talk to people..."
"they aren't as scary as you've grown to think.." she'd say.
"but, i was hoping you'd venture out and talk to other people." she explained. i shake my head in disbelief, a disapproving and sarcastic smile on my face.
"people like sammy?" I state for her. she tilts her head and nods obviously.
i didn't understand the fuss over sammy. sure he was cute, but we aren't compatible. sammy is this popular and loud typical high school boy. i am the girl that you'd expect to get made a fool of in the movies. he's the type of boy you'd expect to lead me on as a joke for his friends.
this would never happen of course. alexis wouldn't let it and it is a movie scene after all. this is reality and in reality sammy and i aren't meant for each other.
"I can be friends with both shawn and sammy if that's what you want so very badly."
"you're crushing on this kid, scar. don't be stupid. he's the first boy you've spoken to in forever, but he won't be the last. there's more out there. don't settle."
I push my paper towards alexis and throw my pen into my bag soon zipping it up furiously. I stand up and throw it over my shoulder then walk towards the door.
"don't forget to give me that before earth science." i say without looking back as i walk out.
when i reached the end of her stairs i made sure to say goodbye to her parents and thank them for allowing me to come over. after quickly hugging the two of them i step outside alexis' house and pull my phone out from my pocket. i begin to walk down the street, my fingers typing out a message.
scar: no why? can i come over
shawn: how bout we go to the pit instead my mom is cleaning kind of loudly
i didn't text shawn back. instead i kept walking until i reached the familiar houses that came before his. i passed by the few of them before i finally reached his. when i got to the driveway i noticed him sitting at the small step at his door. he was wearing a burgundy obey hoodie and grey sweats.
walking over to him i smiled, kicking at his shoe with my foot gently. "lets go."
"i was afraid you wouldn't show up."
we walked past his house and into the field of trees.
"that would've sucked." i laughed quietly, my eyes looking down at my feet as they crunched the leaves on the ground with every step. the rest of the walk was silent until we reached the spot we had in mind.
shawn sat down and bent his knees up, his hands hanging between his legs. without even thinking i sat down in front of him and scooted back up against his chest, his arms moving so i could do this. i could tell he didn't know where to put them at first. he just held them up a bit till i was settled.
once i was comfortable he wrapped his arms around me and pulled me in closer with his chin now resting on the top of my head.
"what's wrong?"
I wrapped my fingers around his thumb and held onto it, staring ahead at the darkness with a hint of trees and house lights.
"you wouldn't want to know." he wouldn't right? it did involve sammy which was never a topic that set well with him for some reason i am yet to be informed of.
"you can tell me, scar. please."
I gave in and began rambling on about what just happened with alexis. shawn didn't say a word as i spoke. part of me wished i didn't have my back towards him so i could just see the look on his face when i explained alexis' disapproval for him. he kept quiet until i finally finished.
"well, that isn't fair." he huffed. "you aren't letting her get into your head, right?" he asked softly.
"would i be here right now?" i knew i had assured him when he pulled his thumb out of
my grasp and held my hand in his instead.
"i don't care what she says. i want to be your friend. you make me happy." i begin to rant. "–but she thinks i like you!" my free hand is thrown up in the air in frustration. "don't be stupid, scar.." i mock. "so what if i did like you? she can't force me to like s-.."
"do you?"
"what? no, i don't like sam–"
"no. i mean do you like me?"
my heart began to race and my mind thoughts were all over the place in panic. after a minute of trying to grab ahold of a single thought i part my lips to answer.
"no. you're my friend."
his tight but comfortable hold on my hand loosens before it's completely gone. he lets go and uncrosses his arms, my small frame no longer being hugged. "it's late. i should walk you home."
