17 || bad reputation
i walked into school yet another day without shawn by my side. alexis started walking me to my classes for "support", but i think that's just a lie so she could keep me from running into shawn and talking to him again.
even if i did cross paths with shawn in the halls i wouldn't approach him. which is why i didn't say anything to alexis about it. i decided to just let her have her way.
if shawn wanted to talk, he'd talk. unfortunately i'd have to deal with that.
there were some days when shawn wouldn't show up to school at all. his seat would be empty in class and he wouldn't be in the music room during lunch by himself, practicing the guitar while no one was around to hear. except me of course.
i'd purposely roam different halls during bathroom breaks and periods i knew he'd have book change during. the times where i would see him were always awkward. he'd look me in the eye while shoving his things into his locker then slam it shut and walk off the opposite direction.
his anger didn't make too much sense. shawn could just be my friend if he cared about me that much. instead he's choosing to hate and avoid me, all because i don't have some stupid crush back on him. it's childish.
but i miss him
the bell rang and i tapped alexis so she could move her head from off my lap. we were sitting down in front of the lockers waiting for first bell. after she stood up she helped me next then we patted our clothes down to make sure we weren't dirty from the floor.
"hello, beautiful." sammy said from behind me, his lips close to my ear before he stepped in front of me. his arms were open for me to hug him which i did, but weakly.
"hi, sammy.." i was met by evil eyes alexis urging me to continue.
"uhh..how is everything!" i clapped my hands together and held them there creating the perfect distance between us.
"everything's good. so i heard you're going to that college party thursday night. that's awesome."
"yeah. wouldn't miss it.." i tried to smile.
tried.
there was a bit of awkward silence until alexis "accidentally" pushed sammy into me. i grabbed onto his shirt with clenched fists in order to keep myself from getting knocked completely over and he pulled me in close.
our faces were inches apart and i could feel his breath on my face. "i-i'm sorry."
"don't worry about it. that was all my fault, i'm the one who should be sorry." he chuckled nervously, then looking over at alexis with a what the hell expression on his face.
it was when he turned his head that i realized what had just happened. my eyes met the gaze of an angry shawn, walking back out the school doors.
"what the hell was that, alexis?! you've got to be kidding me!" I yelled at her for the first time then pushed past both her and sammy, now running after shawn.
when i got outside he was walking towards his car and i all i could repeat to myself as i hurried over was, "no..no..no..no..""
"shawn!" i called out, "shawn stop!"
he didn't listen.
when i finally ran up behind him i placed a firm hand on his shoulder that he jerked away from me followed by the hold i had on his arm.
"go away, scarlett."
"don't call me that!"
he swung open his car door and slammed his hand on the top of it, fingers turning white as he gripped the top of what stood between us so tightly. "that's your name isn't it?"
his voice hit me like a gust of chilling wind. it was cold and there was no part of it that you'd be able to tell once cared.
"you call me scar..."
"i called an old friend scar." he got into his car and slammed the door shut making me jump a little. i stood there for a second with my chest feeling heavy. the sound of his car starting snapped me back into reality and i banged on his window.
"i am your friend! open the door!" i pleaded and pleaded. all he did was yell for me to move out of the way as i walked over, banging on his car until i was in front of it.
i could hear alexis calling my name calmly until she grabbed onto my arm and begged me to come with her to class. i looked shawn in the eyes and shook my head as he looked me back in mine then drove away.
when i turned around and started to walk with alexis i noticed almost everyone staring at me in silence.
i wanted to run home and cry. my eyes began to water while we walked back into the building. when i thought she'd drop me off at my class she kept going with my hand in hers. she took me inside the bathroom as soon as the door shut i hugged her and cried.
even though alexis didn't like shawn and this was her fault she was all i had.
"shhh...it's okay." she said.
"no it's not! it's not okay, alexis. he's my friend!"
"i'm your friend!" she yelled, taking a step back so she was facing me with a serious look then continued.
"he's not your friend, scar. you don't know him or what he's done! just because you think he's the first person to be nice to you does not mean he's good for you!"
"what are you talking about?" i cried, wiping at my nose with my sleeve.
alexis cursed then turned around and started pacing.
"alexis?" i pressed."what are you trying to say?"
she looked at me again, but this time with sympathy. "he's a bad person, scar. that's why he has no friends. the only friend he had was sammy, but something happened."
"what happened?..."
"scar..." she said sincerely.
"keep going."
"shawn uh, he...."
"tell me!"
"killed someone a year ago."
