Arranged Love...

Decisions

***Ellie's P.O.V.****

I could hear my phone going off but I really didn’t feel like waking up yet even though I was in bed by nine last night, if it hadn’t been for the fact that it was Noah’s ring tone I would have ignored it but I hadn’t talked to him since he had left and I really wanted to hear his voice and see if he’s okay.  

“Hello” I answered groggily

“Are you mad at me?” He sounded a bit remorseful 

“Should I be?” I asked trying to get myself to wake up 

“I was supposed to call you as soon as I got here.” He reminded me 

“Oh, no I’m not mad, I was more worried than anything else.” 

“Sorry, things have just been crazy, Mel isn’t doing so good.” He sounded exhausted 

“How are you holding up?” I asked hoping he would be honest 

“I’m hanging in there, they called me from the clinic yesterday about the DNA results.” He said

“What did they say?” I asked hesitantly not sure I wanted to know 

“The baby wasn’t mine.” 

I could hear the hurt in his voice and although there was a little part that was upset he wanted it to be his I was mostly sad that I couldn’t be there for him when he needed me. 

“Noah… I’m sorry, what are you going to do now?” I asked carefully not sure what exactly I should say 

“It actually bothered me a lot more than I thought it would.” He admitted 

“I knew it would, I really wish I could be there for you.” 

“I wish you were here too, but I’ll be fine.” 

“Are you going to tell her?” 

“No, there’s no point in that now, she already has a lot going on this will probably tip her over the edge.” He sighed 

“So what are you going to do.” 

“I don’t know, he sister went back to work today and she’s getting out of the hospital, she’s not really in the position to take care of herself.” 

“So you’re staying until when?” I asked trying to keep my mood in check 

“Please don’t be mad, I just can’t leave her here like this.” He explained 

“Fine, just let me know if you won’t be back by thanksgiving so I can figure out what to tell our families.” I said my voice cracking towards the end 

“El please don’t be like that, if you could see her you would understand.” He said sounding irritated 

I wish I could put aside what I was feeling and just be okay with everything but I had enough trust issues without being pregnant. 

“I’m not being like anything, I just asked that you let me know when you think you’ll be back.” 

“I can’t deal with this right now, I have to go pick Mel up from the hospital so I guess I’ll just talk to you when you’re in a better mood.” 

“Okay, bye.” I hung up 

I laid back down throwing the covers over my head and crying myself back to sleep, I knew I was being childish and that I had nothing to worry about but something just felt wrong and I couldn’t help the way I was feeling.