Chapter 15
ZOE
I woke up shaking all over in panic. I looked over to my side and saw Beau sitting right beside me holding my hands. I let out a sigh of relief. I was so happy to see his face.
I was in the middle of a nightmare.
I dreamt that I was living my final moments and Beau told me that he was cheating on me with Sorcha. My parents told me I was adopted. And all my friends had left me because I had turned 'ugly' due to my cancer and all of these events caused me into a panic attack which killed me aswell as my cancer.
I knew it was stupid to be afraid of something that sounded completely and utterly pathetic, but since I was a naturally paranoid person, all these little things made me feel insecure about myself. Especially the fact that if people found out I had cancer. I would get hate from the janoskianators. Maybe they would unsubscribe from the boys. It suddenly hit me. Me or Beau haven't tweeted about my cancer. We hadn't told the janoskianators. We hadn't told the rest of the Janoskians only Daniel.
I reached to the side of my bed and picked up my phone. The iPhone light shone up onto my face and when I checked the comments on the confession videos there were loadsa comments saying like
'I ship BOEY'
'Please make another BOEY video! You guys are my otp.'
I then decided me and Beau should tell the fans and the other guys from the Janoskians.
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I asked Beau could we film a video on JanoskiansBlog with the boys and we could tell the Janoskianators that I had cancer.
He agreed and rang James,Daniel and Luke
He told Luke that if Jai wanted to come he could.
After an half an hour the guys came. Jai didnt though.
I asked one of the nurses would it be okay if we filmed a video and she agreed.
All the guys jumped on my hospital bed and we started the video.
"Hey guys, were the Janoskians" they said.
"And I'm Zoey" I smiled
"And today, were doing...question and answer 5" they did their strange hands and their girly accents.
"Question 1:
Alice asked, If you could be any celebrity for a day, who would you be?" Luke read.
"I would be Leonardo di Caprio" Beau smiled
"I would be..mhm. Miley Cyrus" Daniel smiled
"I'd be Justin Bieber" James smiled
"I think I'd like to be Harry Styles" Luke smiled
"I'd like to be Beyoncé" I smiled
"Question 2:
Meghan asked:
Would you ever date a fan?" James read
"Yeah I would" Luke answered
"Well I'm dating Zoe, she is a fan" Beau smiled
"Yeah I would, fans are the coolest" James said
"If they have boobies, then yeah" Daniel said.
We kept answering question after question until.
"Question 14:
Ashleigh asked:
Why are you guys in a hospital?"
Daniel read.
"Okay well...I don't really know how to say this. But-" Beau started
"I have stomach cancer, I would be lucky if I lived for longer than a year." I interrupted.
Luke and James opened their mouths in shock. They just though I was in the hospital because I had a flu.
James and Luke stood there shocked, they didn't even move. I knew it was a lot to take in especially being told live on camera.
"Okay. Well that's it for this question and answer. Subscribe" Daniel said really quick improvising.
Beau turned off the camera and the other Luke and James came over to me.
"We are going to make your last year, the best one yet" they said and they left the room with Daniel walking beside them.
I was tired and I was just about to fall asleep, Beau was staying with me again. Holding my hand.
"What were those three things you wanted to do?" He asked
"What?" I asked
"Remember? The other day you told me you wanted to do three things before you die, and that you needed my help to do them?" He asked
"Yeah I remember! Do you really wanna know what they are?" I asked
"Of course I do!" He shot back.
"Number 1:
I really wanna travel to Paris
"Number 2:
I want to get a tattoo, something important to me"
"And I'm not sure if your gonna like the last one." I said.
"Just tell me!!" Beau was practically screeching in excitement.
"Number 3:
I want to patch things up with Jai" I said.
Beaus face fell.
"Tell me your not serious"
"Beau, I don't want to die on bad terms with anybody." I said.
He looked hurt.
"I understand, but he hurt you and me."
I looked him in the eye.
"I know Beau, that's why you need to forgive him aswell. For my sake" I said.
Beau sighed. "Okay fine" he replied.
Everything went quiet for a couple of seconds. "How are you going to get to Paris Zoe? Your too ill to travel." He asked.
I smiled sadly and lowered my head "A girl can dream"
"Head up high princess, your tiara is falling down" he put his hand under my chin and pushed my head up. "We will find a way. I promise" he smiled
Then I saw a couple of tears fall down his face.
"What's wrong Beau?" I asked rubbing his hand which was in mine.
He shrugged his shoulders.
"It's just, the way your saying things you want to do before you die. It makes it all more real, doesn't it?" He asked
"Your going to make me cry now" I agreed.
I felt his large muscular arms wrap around my petite fragile figure. He was being careful by the way he was holding me.
"I don't want you to die" he whispered in my ear.
I felt myself begin to choke on my words.
"Either do I"
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