{disclaimer: above picture is not mine}
I'm afraid now.
We say forever.
We say I love you.
But then his father said he has usually moved on by now.
I'm scared.
He says I'm different,
But now I feel the same.
That one day he is going to let go.
That I don't know what I did wrong.
He will leave and I will be hurt.
I will never want to love again.
I will go through the same things my friends went through.
I will refuse to take my own advice.
I will refuse to leave the house.
I will dwell in my sadness and no one can do anything about it.
This is my future.
I think we will make it.
I don't think he will leave.
But the moment he does I will read this and laugh in my tears.
Love is hell.
But also Heaven.
I promised I wouldn't throw myself back into this hole I dug.
So I'm just leaving my trail of tears in these electronic pages.
And smile when I look away,
Pushing this harsh thought into the back of my head.
And hopefully will never reach it again.
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Random****WARNING**** This has really emotional problems going on in my life and reflects my personal thoughts. This might be triggering to some people. I promise. I will NOT kill myself. These are just personal thoughts that occur to me when I'm in my da...
