I don't think it's you that I miss anymore.
I don't miss you.
I don't miss the skype calls,
I don't miss hearing your voice
I don't miss your looks,
I don't miss these things as much as I miss the affection.
I miss the butterflies in my stomach,
I miss the feeling you gave me.
I miss having the feeling that I truly mattered to someone.
And now I don't Remember what that feels like.
I don't remember the feeling that I truly matter to someone
I don't remember feeling affection.
I don't remember having a strong love for someone.
I just remember the pain,
I remember the pain you caused me.
I remember the pain I caused upon myself.
I remember the tears I shed for months on end.
And I miss the feeling.
I miss the feeling of being able to feel.
I may miss you occasionally.
I may miss the good morning text messages.
I may miss the random texts I got.
I may miss having someone to call my own.
I may miss kissing you.
But I don't want you back.
I don't want to fall for someone again.
I dont want to see anyone again,
I'm fear that I might repeat my past mistakes.
And the mistakes I made will haunt me forever.
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Lost
Random****WARNING**** This has really emotional problems going on in my life and reflects my personal thoughts. This might be triggering to some people. I promise. I will NOT kill myself. These are just personal thoughts that occur to me when I'm in my da...
