As I type these words on this bright phone screen,
And my head throbs with pain,
My eyes threaten to close,
I sit on the cold toilet seat in my bathroom.
Shivers run down my spine.
I sit here tapping my thumbs on this glowing key pad,
My mind drifts to places everywhere.
My stomach is tied in knots and I feel so lost.
My emotions haven't been clear lately.
I keep running my fingers through my hair.
I keep asking myself all these questions.
The type of questions that only you can ask yourself,
But you can't exactly put into words.
I rub my eyes again and daze into the screen before me.
I keep finding thoughts and things to write but the moment I start to type,
My fingers fall slow and my train of thought crashes.
I forget the things I wanted to type.
I feel as though I'm going insane.
I've been pushing away from everyone lately.
Plastering on the usual fake smile.
And the honest thing is,
I don't know how to open up.
I can't just let it all out to someone.
I think I have forgotten how to.
Just like how I forget everything else.
My writing is turning to crap,
And my thoughts are scattered all over the place,
My grades are dropping,
And my happiness is being drained.
And I'm still not sure who or what is causing all the chaos inside my head,
I don't even know if I'm doing this to myself.
And I don't know how I'm going to end this entry.
God,
I have too many entries in this wattpad book.
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Lost
Random****WARNING**** This has really emotional problems going on in my life and reflects my personal thoughts. This might be triggering to some people. I promise. I will NOT kill myself. These are just personal thoughts that occur to me when I'm in my da...
