Feeling Blue

Feeling Blue- chapter 12

The April month brings cold winds and lose leaves flittering around the brench Josh and I sat on. His scafe tickled my bare neck. He held me close, under his fur coat. I felt safe, I felt wanted, I felt loved by someone who cared for who I was!

Josh's gasp scared me for when I said that we needed to stop the wedding for us to be together. 'Clara I know you don't love your mom. If you did love her, you wouldn't do that.' I pulled away from the hug. I starred into his hugh green eyes. 'I do love her but I also love you. Your the best thing that happened to me.' He folded his arms and shifted his long fringe out of his eyes. 'Clara, we are also talking about my dad here. This is why I'm down here. Dad can easily contact my mom and I could be back in wales in a few hours.' He starres down to the floor.

'So, what you saying?' I ask him.

'I love you but...'

'You want your dad to have a great day right?' He held my hand tight and kissed my head. 'Clara its the only way, we could do it in secret.' We hugged close.

Josh dropped me home and I marched over the gravel and into the house. 'Where have you been young lady?' Dad asked me while tidying up the shoe rack. 'Out!' I ran up the stairs as quick as I could and closed the door behide me when I got up to my room. I wasn't pleased with Josh as it is weird. Like Josh said its like me dating Joseph. Errr...

I went on my windows 8 laptop and attached my headphones to it. I turned on my ipod and put it on shuffle. All random tunes came on that I've never heard off before. Then, I switched and switched into a song that we all know supermassive black hole by Muse.

Ooh baby don't you know I saw fun

ooh baby can't you hear me more

you caught me under false proneness

How long will it be until you let me go.

oooooh yeah supermassive ooooh yeah supermassive

patience melting in the eye of life and the sound of supermassive black hole.

Jess skyping me at this moment is how every evening should be. This is what I look forward in a day, chilaxing while your best mate moaning about homework. Not that bit but, the chilaxing bit yeah!!!

'So what are you doing this evening?' Jess asked through the laptop. I looked onto my arm where the cuts were. 'Nothing much, just a quite evening in my room.' Sad isn't it but I didn't want jess to find out I had cuts in my arm. Jess had a pencil in her ear and at her dinning room table. I think she was ment to do her homework, skyping me is better.

Then Marina walked in, with Joseph sick all over her black and a empty bottle in one hand. 'Clara... Clara.' I took off my headphones.

'You couldn't help me get Joseph ready for bed could you? I watch you and everything, I just need a hand.' I put my put headphones down.