Glass shards slice through skin
And moonlight shines off broken bottles.
With crimson red flowing between
Theres a waterfall of tears.
And I can hear them screaming
Yelling at each other.
He's telling her how useless we are
How disposable we are.
And maybe hes right.
But now I'm panicking
And I can't fight it anymore
But I feel like I deserve it
So I'll keep it within my mind
And let it eat me alive.
It'll tear me up
Cut me from the inside out
And i'll sit in a locked room
Silently sobbing with metal pressed to my pale wrist.
And I say that I'm fine
But I want to die again
These thoughts take over my mind
And I blast some music.
But it's stopped working
So i'll just fall asleep.
My dreams are plagued by him
By the metal under my pillow
And the thoughts of my waking hours
And so i'll write some more.
Spill my heart and hope to die
Maybe I'll be okay for once
But I'm waking up screaming every night
I can't calm my racing heart...
My headphones are in
And my music's loud again
I've stopped singing
And mums worried again.
I'm itching and the urges are getting bad
I'm not sure where to turn
I want to do it again
But I made a promise I'm trying to keep
So I'll just listen to music
And cry it out
I'm turning numb barely speaking
Even my best friend let me push her away
I feel so alone
Like everyone hates me
So I dont bother reaching out anymore
Ill let my anxiety over rule me
And I'll swallow white pills
And close my eyes
I'll fall asleep to a nightmare
Only to wake up and it never end.
