By now I should have learned
Each night I've tossed and turned.
Theres evil in my dreams
I'll wake up into screams.
Silver metal will rip and tear.
It's just another secret affair.
A secret kept hidden
Unknown words being written.
Snow white pills
That come with the chills.
My vision is blurry
You're beginning to worry.
Relapse and withdrawal
Just emptying the bottle.
I just keep running
Gotta go full throttle.
I've lost all control
I'm on the roll.
I just went on a stroll
I dug myself a deep hole.
There's so much to be done
But life's not even fun.
And now I'm holding a gun
I'm still on the run.
I'm not sure how to feel
I dont know how to deal.
Can i just be real?
I'm not made out of steel.
I'm a ticking time bomb
And there's a blade on my palm.
I'm never even calm
