And with your colorful lies
I fell more and more.
Not knowing it'd end in a bloody war
But I accepted my fate and let you in.
I wanted your heart
Even as you left me alone.
I watched myself crumble
And finally vanish into the dark.
You see, I'm fighting this war
And I doubt I'm going to win.
I'm already so tired of living
With this demon in my mind.
This voice in my head yelling to end it
The people around me not seeing it.
Ive told them but yet they wont listen
And now I have a piece of metal ripping my skin.
Theres bloody tears leaking from my arms
And things are getting blurry from the drugs.
But it's to the point I dont care if I die
There's no one here to help me fight.
And all I do is cause more strife
So why not end my life.
Maybe everyone would be okay
And I wouldn't be the cause of all this pain.
And I'm taking more pills
As someone tries to break down the door.
I scream as my chest ripples in shock
Feeling my heart stopping.
And its suddenly too cold
But as I look at my scarred wrists and ankles.
I realize maybe not everyones meant for life
So I slash my thighs.
These wounds that will never heal
Blue eyes turning glassy, unblinking.
And skins as pale as snow with no warmth left
I say four words and hope they'll be passed to him.
Unknowingly i'll take my last breath.
And i'll sigh in relief.
The battle is over
And its ended with a casualty.
