Just for a moment (a Zachary Levi fanfic) (Ami book 1)

Feeling bad

"I feel like a real bitch to be honest". Amelia sighed deeply, it was Tuesday afternoon and she was sitting in Linda's kitchen.

Linda sipped her tea and looked at her. "But you can't say it just because he does, if that isn't how you feel".

"I am not sure about me feelings, I am crazy about him, I am certainly in love with him, but saying I love you is just such a big step, especially after just 5 weeks". She rubbed her head.

Linda nodded. "I totally gets it and the fact that he is leaving in about a week has to influence you too right ?"

"Yeah it just seems so impossible, especially with me getting so much more to do now when the single is about to get released and he already has a lot of things to do, when would we ever be together ?" She said.

Linda sent her a compassionated smile. "Yeah it wouldn't be easy, but are you ready to just let him go ? Let this be just for a moment and then move on ?"

"No, I don't think so, but I am afraid how he will handle being apart, he send me three messages while I have been here, and it is the same every time I am at work". She looked at her phone as the fourth text came.

Linda got up and put water on for more tea. "Well yeah he seems a bit controlling, even though it is most just sweet things he writes, but how will he cope if he can't be away from you for an hour without writing".

"Exactly and I am afraid it will turn into something far worse when we are far apart, ending up, in him wanting to know where I am and what I do". Amelia bit her lip, she could often feel his jealousy right under the surface.

Linda poured a cup of tea. "Yeah, I mean I like Zac, But I understand your fear, it is something in the way he looks at you, he looks like he could propose at any minute".

"Don't say that please, I wouldn't know what to do if he did, hopefully he is not thinking about things like that". She was close to panic at the mere thought.

Linda sighed and sipped her tea. "I really hope not, for his own sake but he just seems so sure about his feeling and so intense about you, I actually wouldn't be surprised if he did".

"He is so intense and passionate about everything, like he can't do anything halfway, it is all or nothing with him and I could fear his reaction if he felt hurt". Amelia took a big mouthful tea.

Linda wrinkled up her forehead looking at her. "You don't think he could become aggressive or something ?"

"No no not at all, I don't think he would ever put a hand on me in anger, get mad, scream, curse and say stupid things yes, and I could fear he would go do something stupid". She ran a hand through her hair.

It was nice to talk, she didn't know why, but she had this growing feeling of driving towards a ledge with no breaks and she didn't know why.

Zac was always sweet, attentive and loving, but he had a real problem being apart from her, even for short periods of time and he texted her constantly when they were apart, always sweet messages but it was still to much.

And then the intensity, he told her several times a day, that he loved her, often with really big words and she started to feel obliged to say something back.

She felt so torn, she really cared about him, but they were running out of time and she didn't know what would happen when he left.