When I'm Gone ( Nate Maloley AU)

Aftertaste: Chapter Twenty-Seven

I giggle as the alcohol travels through me. Spin the bottle has left me drunk and happy. Cameron, just about the save. I spin it and it lands on him.

Finally.

He presses his lips to mine and kisses me deeply, holding me tightly against him like there's nothing else that mattered. I kiss back, allowing this to make me forget.

They left us after it took longer than a few minutes. Cam pulled away first, his fingers had curled my hair.

"We should get home."

I smile at him as I realize, he was never drunk. I allow him to take me home. I'm my state, I could barely walk.

"Cameron?" I whisper.

"What?"

"I understand if you want to leave me. I'm unlovable and I hate myself enough to know that no one should want me. I know you don't love me. I'm scared to find out if that's true because I love you so much."

He looks down at me.

"I won't leave."

•••

When I woke and came downstairs, Cameron was gone. Tears burn in my eyes. It was all a lie. I sit on the couch and when I hear the door open, it's only Jude.

"Where's the boyfriend?"

"I don't kno-"

The door opens again and I hear giggles. When I turn I see Cameron there drunk. The girl smiles as I walk to him.

"I thought you said you were leaving."

My heart shattered.

"Yeah, Cam. Let me go get the rest of my stuff."

Once I make it upstairs and a half hour into packing, I feel hands on my waist.

"Don't go."

I bite my lip.

"Do you actually care, Cameron?"

"Of course-"

"I remember last night. I remember telling you I love you. You're just like everyone else."

"No, you can't leave!"

"Give me a good reason."

His brown eyes plead with me.

"I don't have one."

I get the last of my things before he kisses me hard and pushes me against the wall. His fingers locking in my hair.

"I didn't even kiss her. If you leave now we will both be broken. I left because I knew if I watched you all night I'd mess up. I knew you wouldn't leave."

Cameron comes to me and kisses me hard. We walk back into the bedroom door and it slams shut, Cameron locks it before lifting me up and slamming me down onto the bed.

"I hate you, Cameron," I laugh.

"I know."

The door knob wiggles and I hear it unlocking. Cameron gets off of me and I look up to see its Nate. I groan and lay back down.

"I'm sorry," Cam says.

He turns to Nate who smirks.

"Hey, Nate. Out of my room."

"Why so you can fuck the slut?"

"No, because this is my house."

The door shuts and locks and Cameron looks at me. I giggle and pull him down to kiss me again. He gets my shirt off and takes his off as well. He pulls me so I'm on his lap. His fingers loop into the belt loops, causing me to laugh. He gets them off my legs, leaving me in my underwear only. He smirks at me.

Cameron kisses me hard before trailing them down my body. I moan softly and he smirks.

"Cameron!" Nash calls.

I gasp and find pajamas before slipping them on. The door opens and i look at Nash.

"You two?"

"What Nash?"

I leave so they can talk. Once I get downstairs, Nate looks at me.

"Don't pretend you care, Nate."

He takes my hands and pulls me to him.

"Nate, stop. We aren't a thing, and i was stupid for believing you."

"She did what?"

I go to run upstairs, but he grabs my hands. Nash and Cameron come running down.

"Let me go!"

"Hayden, Nash told me you kissed Jude."

"No, what? Nate let go!"

I pull away and grab Cameron's hand. He only pulls away and the other two leave.

"Hayden, we need to break up."

"Cam-"

"No, I can't deal with this drama anymore. If we were supposed to be together this wouldn't happen. It's honestly not you."

"I have no where to go."

"I'll send you home to Nebraska."

"Cameron-"

"No. that's what I'm doing, I'm sorry."

•••

I lay on my bed back home. Tears burn in my eyes. They wanted everything ruined and they got it. I go to cam's Instagram only to find me blocked. My heart breaks. I can't blame him for breaking up with me. He protected his heart.

I blame Sammy for not stopping it. I blame them for being so petty that I can't be happy. I was so happy with Cameron my heart feels like it's been shattered so many times that I can't repair it.

There's a soft knock, but I know it's Mr. Wilkinson. He divorced my mom, she moved away, but he still sees me as a daughter.

"Are you okay?"

"I'm fine," I whisper, "Never should have moved with them."

"Did the two of you love each other?"

"I loved him. Things don't always work out."

"He'll come back."

"I don't want him to."

He sighs and shuts the door.

Cameron;

He looks at her profile. He's beyond pissed at himself that he didn't keep her. He's pissed because she will never forgive him. The look she gave him when he broke her heart. He could see her wall go down as well as any light left in her eyes.

He ruined her.

"Cameron you bastard!" Gilinsky says, "Why did you do this? She blocked all of us including Madison who now blames herself."

"I just couldn't do it anymore," he whispers, "And I regret it, but she obviously wants nothing to do with us."

"You two were so in love! Why would you do that when you know she hurts?"

"I don't know."

"Hayden, please, Nebraska isn't home anymore," Sam says into the phone, "We all miss you."

"I can't, Sam. I'm going to stay gone like Nate has always wanted. I am so sorry to Madison, but it isn't her fault."

"Please come home."

"No."