Jar of Emotions

Regrets

I looked at her and I saw a beautiful kind of smile that I will never ever forget..

He holds her hand and place it on his cheek...

"Noon, ako ang gumagawa ng ganon sakanya. Pero ngayon iba na."

I can hear the crashing sound of my heart. Pieces of my heart scattered around the floor.

"Baby, can you hear me?"

A lone tear escaped on my eye. And walk away.

It's been a year and a half since the day that I left you.

But still you are here in my heart...

"Vren, are you staying there for good?" My girlfriend ask me.

I am now living with my Aunt because my Parents are OFW in abroad. I left the place where I was born. And I left my girl that I love there.

I sighed.

"I don't know, baby."

The silence is between us and I know she dont like what I have said.

"Oh.. Okay." Mahina nitong sambit.

But I don't want us to talk about that. I diverted the topic and talk some random things until the sun is up.

My whole vacation was just like that. Me and her communicating through phone.

Until the first day of being an Senior came.

I looked around. New faces and new sorroundings to deal with.

Hinanap ko yung classroom kung saan ako.

IV - Eyneid. That's the section were I am in.

I seated at the back where there are also boys who is seating.

The classroom is noisy because of the chitchatting, reuniting friends, talking about what happened to their summer.

As the days passed, Its my routine. Go to school, go home, communicate to my girl, sleep, school, home and so on.

Months passed you called at me crying saying that you misses me, that you needed me.

My heart is in pain as I hear you cry. And I cant do anything about it because were to far to each other.

As time goes by I dont know what happened to me, I just woke up that I dont want to received texts from you, I always ignore your calls and texts.

That ignited our fights. You always ranting, nagging that I didnt text you. And I decided to end this because it's going nowhere.

I've hurt you.

I'm an ass.

After that Incident, I've got flings.

Girlfriends that I two timed. Girls around me.

Girls that I take also seriously but still, none of them lasted.

Because it's not you.

I am finding them in you...

Yes, I'm a jerk, I'm an ass to do that.

Until the day that I decided to go home.. for you..

And I think it's too late.

To see you with another man, holds you like the way I do.
Stares at you with love, just like the way I do.

And it hurts me more when you smiled at him lovingly, hold him like it's your last grip from him.

I used to be that.

I used to be your man who stare, hold and love you like there's no tommorow.

Regrets? I have. Many.

For not seeing your worth.

Regrets on wasting your love.

"Is there a chance? For me? To comeback to you?" I asked.

"I'm sorry. I am happy with him already. He lifted me when I am so down, he was there when I needed him. You had yours, Vren. But you've wasted it. I'm sorry." She said and walk away.

The one that I love who promised to love me whole with all of my flaws walked away from me...