Jar of Emotions

Envy

How I envy those lovers whenever I saw some.
How they hold each others hand,
As they walk side by side together through the street.
Smile at each others faces like nobody is watching.

I envy those.. Why?

Maybe In the back of my mind that that was I want. That it should've been like that.

But why envy? Why do you have to envy for those my heart?

How can I move forward when all of the things reminded me of him.

Someone's perfume. Someone's bag. Someone's shirt. Someone's shoes. Someone's laugh. Someone's gesture. Someone's look. Someone's voice...

It reminded me all.

Why?

Regrets? What if's? What is it?

"I'm not over him." I said to a friend.

"You will be. Soon." Yep. Easy to say but hard to do when that someone leaves you a mark.

It was all reminded on me. Everthing.

Maybe I envy because I have been longing to do those with him.

I envy.. No.. I longed for him.

I am longing with a thought. That it should have been that.
I am longing with a thought.
I am longing with a thought.

Longing and thought.

Longing with a thought.

It was..

It was just..

It was just a thought.