Jar of Emotions

I say sorry easily

Sorry.

Sorry for you think that I easily given you up.

Sorry but I didn't. I fought for you so hard but I think.. for you.. that wasn't enough.

Sorry.

Sorry, if you felt that you don't have me.

I'm here. I am. I don't get tired easily. I can talk to you all day and night long. I can be with you when everything is not right. I will fight with you with everything.

Sorry.

Sorry, If i'm not worthy.

I know that you loved me but... i know you are searching for something.

Sorry.

Sorry, if you don't see me that way.

I'm sorry, if I am not the one you are searching for. It breaks me but who am i?

Sorry.

Sorry, for hurting you.

I knew you had been too much. I knew you felt that panging pain and loneliness for a long time and I dissapointed you. Who am I to cage you? If you wanted to be free? Until the end I only think about you. Your happiness or was my decision was wrong?

Sorry, for the disappointment.

I knew you were wishing. Me too. I'm holding on so tight and I felt it to you too. But is this the way they say that we are not really for each other?

And...

Sorry.

Sorry for loving you... Too much. Too much with all of me.

I knew that you knew my backstory. I am loving you with all of you. I am loving you.. Still.. way back then when you cried on the phone with me, when you had problems. And I love you with all of your fragments and flaws. I love you because you are you.

Sorry.

For I am a selfish bitch for guarding up my emotions.

For the doubt.
For not believing you.
Because there's this scar in my heart.
But why?
Why did you come up on going down?
Why did you gave up so easily?
Why are those lips easily to say I love you for another girl?
Why easy forget?

While here I am still, with the memories that we had. Wishing you all the happiness.

"Tears stream down on your face.
Tears stream down on your face when you lose something that you cannot replace."

Tears stream down on my face..