Jar of Emotions

My

I saw how you talked, walked, laughed and scream like nobody is looking at you. I heard how you cuss and it drives me to nuts because it was so epic and it camr naturally in your mouth.

You were a bright walking sunshine to me when I saw you...

Those days when you try to invite me for lunch but I always refuse to your offer.

But as das, weeks, and months passed. You saw me in the corner crying and looked into my eyes and that day I know you're different.

Different from the friends that i've met...
Different from them even though we stayed for years... But you.. I barely talked to you and we just met months ago.. As I stare at your eyes I know something in me has changed.

We've been together and we laugh, eat like a pig but who cares right? Atleast we are fcking full and fcking satisfied.

We cuss, we don't say I love you because that's an "Ew"
You barely open up. You say it's hard to give someone your full trust. It's okay. It doesn't matter. I'll just have wait I said to myself.

One day, classes are over, we are in a vacant room. Only three of us was left. We are just talking random things, anything under the sun. Then there's this random topic that made you, yourself open up a little.

Back then and there, I said. No. No, you're not a walking sunshine. You are in a dark endless bottomless pit.

I saw you cry but it is different from the cries that i've seen. Yes, you're eyes are wet and dripping with tears but as I saw how those tears fall, your eyes were motionless, cold, lost and guarded.

There are so many things to talked about but one thing is for sure, my wish to you is..

I want to see your eyes glisten with tears not because of pain but with darn geniune happiness.

And now that you've met someone, blindly hoping and holding on to it, I want to accomplish that mission.

I wish that person could build that puzzle and make it into a master piece. Because I, too, is waiting for that.