Jar of Emotions

Delusion

I have dreamt of you last night.. Again.

You were here with me... Again.
I felt you in my arms... Again.
Your hands brushed to mine.
Your lips touches my lips.
A sweet night that even myself asking.. "Are you for real?"

"You came back." I said in disbelief.

You were holding the doorknub on my room. You are staring at me with those eyes that I can't name.

My sleepy eyes seems not to belive but my heart thumps faster. I looked away.

"No, this is just one of those dreams again." I muttered lowly.

You came closer and satted on the edge of the bed. I was looking at you again as if I am seeing this things for the first time.

I blink my eyes numerous of times preventing tears to came out. You reached my hands and held it tight that's when my tears finally fall.

"Y-you're here." I said closing the gap between us.

I touched your hair, trace your forehead and my favorite part of your body... Your eyes. Coming down to your nose and to your lips. You were just staring at me the whole time.

I am silently tearing up infront of you, that not even once when we were together, I never showed it to you.

How come now that I am loosing this all with you?

"Tahan na..." You spoked and that made me even cry harder. Your hands brushed to my cheeks to keep the tears away but it's no use.

On what I did surprised me. I hugged you. Tight. Burying my face on your chest. I never initiate hugs. But you even hugged me tighter.

You just hugged me til I stopped crying. Still, looking at me intently.

You touched my face and wipe the tears on my face.

"I miss you." You said. I closed my eyes to savor the moment. To savor those words.

My tears fall and looked at you straight and smiled.

"I missed you, more than you missed me. No, I longed for you to be here. I missed you. I missed you. Don't go." I said with quivering lips and hugged you again.

You smiled and shooks your head.

"I won't. Stop crying, please."

I chuckled and smile with tears.

You tuck me to bed and I was just staring at everything you do.You laughed lowly.

"I'm not going anywhere. I'll be by yourside, love. So, lay down and I'll lay next to you."

And so I did what you've said. The room was cold and we were both under the sheets. Staring at each other and smiling..

I think we're both idiots. Because we're smiling and neither both of us don't talk.
"How are you?" Asked by him while placing my hair at the back of my ear.

"I..i'm fine.. I think." I said whispering.

"Come here." You said and scooped me into your arms again.

I inhaled your scent and it was just the same like before.

You hugged me as you caress my back with your hands. My room was silent.

Then suddenly you hummed. You hummed songs that we used to sing and hear together.

"I missed this." I said and move away to look at you.

"Me too." You smiled.

Then we started talking each other. Random stuffs. Questions some things, arguing about what's the best on the taste of this, Me saying that Mashed potato is not really good and you will defend that it's not.

"What time will your class end tomorrow?" You asked me.

"Hmm? 5:30, love. Why?" I asked and look at you.

"Nothing." You suddenly gave me a peck on my lips.

"Is that even possible? Why?" I asked again but you didn't answer.

"Why? Huh, why?" I asked playfuly and tugging your arms. You gave me a chuckle and a pinch on my cheeks.

"I'll fetch you, is that bad?" You said and pinch both of my cheeks.

"But you said you were going to--" You cutted me off.

"I changed my mind. I'll fetch you, is that clear?" I pouted and arched my brow on you.

You arched your brow too and I am trying to hold my laughter.

"Let it out, I know you are dying inside." Then I burst out laughing.

"Yeah yeah. Make fun of me. I'll get my revenge." You said not minding me but you are smiling.

I laughed my asses of.

"Awww. Haha. Love, my tummy hurts." I said while wiping tears on my eyes from laughing.

"Awww. Who's fault is that?" You asked back. I laughed again.

"You are not going to stop, do you?"

I shooked my head to say No when you suddenly tickle me. I scremead and you laughed with me.

"I..I will--- stop! HAHA.LOVE!" I can't breathe from laughing.

"What did you say? I can't hear anything!" You said then tickle me more

"Loooove, I said stop. I will stop."  Then you stopped and lay beside me. We were catching our breaths. We both looked at each other and smiled.

Our laughters died and so our smile. Your face is getting nearer to mine.

And I'm right.

Can I say that it felt like I breathed a fresh air when your lips touched to mine?

Can I say that it felt so good to taste those lips again?

We kissed. And I was crying inside with happiness.

The kiss that we shared was long enough for us to felt that we really missed each other.

When our kissed ended you rested your forehead to mine.

I stirred and wake up because of the coldness that I am feeling. I crawled to my bed and turned the fan into number one.

I lay down and hug my knees. I'm still sleepy but my mind was on my dream.

It's you. Again.

I am thinking that is it real that I have dreamed of you? My chest is aching and felt heavy.

It's a bittersweet dream. I uttered softly and with closed eyes, I shed a tear.